Fear is an unpleasant feeling caused by the belief that someone or something is dangerous, likely to cause pain, or a threat. We all seem to have a fear of something that gets in the way of life. Some are scared of living things such as roaches, snakes, spiders, ghost and etc. We can all think about this for a second: is this what we’re scared of or is this all in our imagination. Fear as a child is way different than our adulthood.
As a child I was scared of almost everything. I was scared of big roaches. I would literally jump on a bed or chair and scream for my mom to come inside the room and kills it. My poor mom would laugh so hard and call me a scaredy cat. Another example, I was scared of drunk men. If I saw any drunk men in the streets while I’m with my mom I would always think they might attack me or my mom. Majority of people are violence when they are drunk, so I would never want to be around them. But there were a lot of them in my neighborhood.
Another example, not succeeding in life. There has been many times I thought of giving up on school. Every tear drop, struggle, and stress helped me to push myself everyday to become a better person. I try to study in between of going to school and working full time. This has been really tough on me. I’ve gotten very overwhelmed at certain points. I am working hard on my life and future in order to make them happy, especially for my mom. But most importantly without my two besties Meva and Rob, it has been both my motivation through it all. I thank them for always being there for me and helping me as much as possible.
Lastly, I’m afraid of losing my parents. People need to realize that as we get older our parents are getting old as well. It’s sad to say but true. We just don’t know when our time ends and only god knows. I would hate to see my parents go. It’s also sad that I have to work so much that I don’t get to spend time with them. Life gets so busy and we forget to spend time and cherish those little moments.
These fears are definitely beneficial to me because I learned to love and have patience with myself. While growing up everything made sense to me. Being scared of roaches have never changed and that’s one thing that stayed constant. The only thing that I’m fearful of is of life and how life works. I believe we are born here for a reason and it’s all a test. People forget that. Maybe others view it differently, but I was born to be different and unique.
Books that i have read recently, and am currently reading.
Books that I’ve read in my past English classes
Influences in the past year
– A Love So Beautiful
– Meteor Garden
IN THE PAST THESE ARE SOME OF THE BOOKS I’VE READ:
The Grapes of Wrath
To Kill a Mockingbird
12 Angry Men
CORE BOOKS/MOVIES/MUSIC OR CULTURAL INFLUENCES:
Long Walk to Freedom (Nelson Mandela)
Condoleezza Rice A Biography
I’ve watched many movies and shows and read many books and articles that I’ve enjoyed and some that have even influenced me.
-Good Girls= has taught me what a mother should never do no matter how much you’re struggling financially.
-Degrassi Next Generation- This show is one of the only shows I’ve watched that relates to teenagers. I loved this show growing up and now Drake who is on the show an is now a famous rapper made a music video with the cast called I’m upset.
One of my all time favorite books is Willow by Julia Hoban- this book has helped me when I was going through a hard time.
Stop Googling. Let’s Talk. an article by Sherry Turkle has inspired me because now when i have a conversation with them i never use my phone out of respect and expect the same back.
Macbeth by William Shakespeare.
The girl who fell from the sky by Heids W.Durrow
12 years a slave.
Crazy rice asian.
Marvels the punisher.
Kolay Olmayacak by Sezen Asku.
Callin you by Outlandish.
Kalbimin Tel Sahsbine by Irem Derici.