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My Artist Soul

“We should call this place the cottagette.” Malda said.

“Why not? It is for too small for a house, too pretty for a hut, too unusual for a cottage.” I said.

“Cottagette, by all means,” said Lois, seating herself on a porch chair. “But it is a larger than it looks, Mr.Mathews. How do you like it, Malda?”

This so called Cottagette looks like it going to be a cozy and comfortable environment for them to work in. Malda and Lois should be able to have fresh clear thoughts on coming up with great ideas for their work. This should help their artistic minds flourish.

“How about meals?” said Lois

“Its just over yonder, not two minutes walk,” I said; I showed them a little furtive path between the trees to the place where meals were furnished.

As we walked and talked, it seems like Lois was a little skeptical about the place. Like she was not use to this particular environment and is still stuck in the urban area. However, Malda seem to be very fond of this place and adapted to this environment so quickly, as if she has been here for ages. I think she’s really going to like here.

I remember being with them at “High Court”. It was a place that was a summer school of music.

Malda always show a way of how passionate she was as an artist. When I use to sit and watch her come up with her creative idea in “The Calceolaria” to show Lois, she was so amazed with her work. Her eyes was wide open with a smile for ear to ear. However, there would be times that it look like she had doubt in herself and something was holding her back.

Lois was there to help push and guide her through. But it never seems like that was enough. There were times Lios, Malda and I would just use music to help us keep our minds focus on our work. We all like music, which was a powerful statement to us.

I asked her if she would work with me on a piece for a project about her interest in art. But, it never came about.

I would come over to their place and sit with them on the porch to discuss ideas. Also during the daytimes, I would go on long walks with them. We would find our way back to my cave for tea, made on a gipsy fire.

In spending time with Malda and Lois, I became very interested in Malda. I thought she was interested in me too. She started to ask me things such as what are my goals in life, the work I have done, and what were my accomplishments. Don’t get me wrong, they are accomplishments but only the beginning. I told her this was all like cutting steps in the ice-wall. It had to be done, but the road was long ahead.

Malda did not think of her work as it was important like Lois’s. She considered it more as a hobby or as if she was doing it in her spare time. I thought her work was exquisite. Someone would consider it as a simple piece but my eye saw something else with Malda’s work that was extreme.

One afternoon Malda and I were talking in my cave while we were drinking tea.

“Where are you from?” Malda said.

I replied. “My family are good western farming people. They’ve been there for many years, so technically we are considered as ‘real Americans’. Growing up on a farm I helped my family feed and clean our animals. By growing crops and catching water from the well. Many days I spent time herding the animals and gathering the many vegetables and crops for supper.”

She was so enthused looking into my eyes, cherishing every word I said. As if she was amazed of where I came from. I had a strong feeling that she was falling for me-and I was falling for her.

I realized the feeling was  mutual for me too because I became comfortable with her and talking about my life. I thought to myself what it be like to have a relationship and home with Malda being I did not know a home since I was eighteen.

Later on, I ran into Lois on my way to food court.

She said, “Does this remind you good home cooking and doesn’t it make you  slightly feel home sick?”

I told her, “I never known a home since I was eighteen.”

One day when I came over to the cottagette and I noticed a kitchen was installed into the place. Ever since then, I was able to go over to the cottagette for a home cooked meal. It was pleasant to know that I was able to drop in knowing there would always be food. But I noticed Malda was only paying attention to cooking and cleaning. Her artwork ethnicity started to change and was not desirable as it was before.

Malda was an excellent baker, I especially liked her whole wheat bread, hot rolls and gems. I really liked them and other people seem to like them too. There were so many other people coming over to eat supper. There would be so many dishes, I would purposely not help her, hoping it would stop her from cooking and baking. For some reason this never deterred her from making another meal the next evening.

The cottagette was a place that always seem to be busy, full with people and food. Lois mom came over to visit assisting in keeping the place in order. She would have the broom in one hand and duster in the other. Constantly going over the place which seemed quite unnecessary.

I started to come over more and became very close to Malda.

I told Lois, I really enjoyed spending time with her, she is great at cooking and cleaning but most of all I cherished her artistic view.

“Do you really really care for her?” Lois asked inquisitively.

“I really do!” I said without hesitating.

One day I came over early and asked Malda to go up Hugh’s Peak with me.

“But what’s today? Monday. Isn’t it washing day? Theres much to do.” Malda said.

“Never mind that,” I said, “what’s washing day or ironing day or any of that old foolishness to us? This is walking day–that’s what it is.”

The walk took the whole day, Malda enjoyed herself which I was hoping she would.

It was a refreshing day with a slight cool breeze from this summer night. It wouldn’t have been a better day to go.

“Come along!” I said. “We can see as far as Patch Mountain I’m sure. There’ll never be a better day.”

“Is anyone else going?” Malda asked.

“Not a soul. It’s just us. Come.”

She came happily, “Wait, let me put up a lunch.” She said.

“I’ll wait just long enough for you to put on knickers and a short skirt.” said I. “The lunch is all in the basket on my back. I know how long it takes for you women to put up sandwiches and things.”

Malda was pretty pleased with my cooking.

“It tasted better than my own cooking.” She confessed.

I took her down to the spring on a broad ledge to make tea as we normally would do. I wanted her to see the beauty of the sun set, while the moon rises into the sky. And then I turned to her.

“Would you be my wife?”

She looked ecstatic.

“But there’s a condition!” I exclaimed. “You mustn’t cook!”

“What!” said she. Mustn’t cook?”

“No,” said I. “you must give it up–for my sake.”

She looked dumbfounded.

“Yes, I know all about it,” I told. Lois told me. I’ve seen a good deal of Lois since you’ve taken cooking. And since I would talk about you, naturally I learned a lot. She told me how you were brought up, and how strong your domestic instincts were–but bless your artistic soul dear girl, you have some others!” I smiled, “surely in vain the net is spread in the sight of any bird.”

“I’ve watched you, dear, all summer,” I went on, “It doesn’t agree with you.”

“Of course the things taste good– but so do my things! I’m a good cook myself. My father was a cook, for years–at good wages. I’m used to it you see.”

“One summer when I was hard up I cooked for a living and saved money instead of starving.”

“O ho!” she said shockingly. “that accounts for the tea and the lunch!”

“And lots of other things,” said I. “But you haven’t done half as much of your lovely work since you started this kitchen business, and you’ll  forgive me, dear, it hasn’t been as good. Your work is too good to lose; it is a beautiful and distinctive art, and don’t want you to let it go. What would you think of me if I gave up my long hard years of writing for the easy competence of a well-paid cook!”

She said there quietly as if she was thinking and processing everything I have just said. “But you want to marry me?”

“I want to marry you, Malda,–because I love you–because you are young and strong and beautiful–because you are wild and sweet and fragrant and elusive, like the wildflowers you love. Because you are so truly an artist in your own special way, seeing beauty and giving it to others. I love you because of all of this, because you are rational and high minded and capable of friendship,–and in spite of your cooking.

She asked, “But–how do we want to live?”

“As we did here–at first,” I said. “There was peace, exquisite silence. There was beauty–nothing but beauty. There were the clean wood odors and flowers and fragrances and sweet wild wind. And there was you–your fair self, always delicately dress, with white firm finger sure of touch in delicate true work. I loved you then. When you took to cooking it jarred on me. I have been a cook, I tell you, and know what it is. I hated it to see my wood-flower in a kitchen.”

“But Lois told me about how you were brought up to it and loved it and I said to myself, ‘I love this women; I’ll wait to see if I love her even as a cook.’ And I do, Darling: I withdraw the condition. I will love you always, even if you insist of being my cook for life!”

“O I don’t insist!” She cried. “I don’t want to cook–I want to draw! Drawing is my absolute passion.  But I thought Lois said– How she has misunderstood you!”

“It is true, always, my dear,” said I, “that the way to a man’s heart is through his stomach; at least it’s not the only way. Lois doesn’t know everything,she is young yet!

And perhaps for my sake you can give it up. Can you sweet!?”

She sat there in silence.

And that for me was a thousand words.

 

The Yellow Wall-Paper and The Cottagette

In the passage “The Cottagette” the narrator Malda is sharing a cottage at High Court for the summer with her best friend Lois to follow their dreams. Malda like music and a creative mind. She talks about how much she loves being there and how pleasant the place was.

“I like the music very well, and kept my thoughts to myself, both high and low, but “The Cottagette” I loved unreservedly.It was so little and new and clean,smelling only of its fresh-planed boards–they hadn’t even stained it.”

After she goes on about how harmonious High Court was such a grateful place, she talk about meeting interesting people and one particular person, Ford Mathews. A guy that was a newspaper man,that is becoming a writer for a magazines and books. She became really close to this person, by going on long walks with him and going over to his cave for tea. They both became interesting into each other work and goals. They started to become very fond of each other and Malda began to fall in love with him. Malda wanted to do things to enhance their relationship to please Mr.Mathews by doing homemaker work such as cooking and cleaning. She got the idea from her friend Lois due to the fact that she has been married before, but unfortunately divorced. She thought that Lois has experience in knowing what a guys wants. However, in this case, you found out that this is not true.

“It is not true, always, my dear,” said he, “that the way to a man’s heart is through his stomach; at least it’s not the only way. Lois doesn’t know everything, she is young yet!”

Ford Mathews proposes to Malda in one condition which is to stop being a homemaker. One reason is because it is distracting her from pursuing her dreams as an artist. He told her he would do the cooking because he was use to it. Mathew’s father was a cook and Mathews actually cooked for a living to make money. From Malda cooking she was not doing a great job with her creative distinctive art.

If this story was able to continue, most likely you can see that Malda was going to be able to marry a guy that loves her and want her to accomplish her dreams. He was not going to let anything stand in the way of that.

In the passage “The Yellow Wall-Paper” the narrator is very ill. She’s going through a nervous depression. She is staying in a place for summer vacation. She consider a haunted house where is suppose to stay clear minded and for not doing any activities.

As stated in my discussion, the narrator states“John is practical in the extreme.He has no patience with faith, an intense horror of superstition,and scoffs openly at any talk of things not to be felt and seen and put down in figures.”However, her husband John actually does follow these traits,there were times that he did the opposite. For example, when the narrator is not making any progress by showing sign that she is getting better, John threatens her by sending her Weir Mitchell. Later on in the story John has a different perspective. The narrator states John actually having faith by giving her hope. “John says I musn’t lose my strength, and has me take cod liver oil and lots of tonics…” These types of actions play through back and forth throughout the story.

In the story, the narrator secretly writes when her husband  is not around. She thinks is helping her with her sickness.

“I think sometimes that if I were only well enough to write a little it would relieve the press of ideas and rest me.”

She also feels like she is not playing the wife role and only being a burden towards her husband.

“I meant to be such a help to John,such a real rest and comfort,and here I am a comparative burden already!

Nobody would believe what an effort it is to do what little I am able,-to dress and entertain, and order things.”

She is not able to do these things because of her nervousness. John her husband and her brother who are physician believe that Jane is not sick. This makes the narrator Jane upset because they are having miscommunication.

“I get unreasonably angry with John sometimes.. I think it is due to this nervous condition.”

“I don’t like our room one bit.I wanted one downstairs that opened on the piazza and had roses all over the window,and such pretty old-fashioned chintz hanging! but John would not hear of it.”

In these two stories, both of the narrators had two different feelings towards the environment they were around. In “The Cottagette”, the narrator loved and was happy to be in the place she was because she was pursuing her dreams. In “The Yellow Wall-Paper” the narrator was did not want to be place in that environment and it bothered her throughout her whole entire time there. Both of these settings took place during the summer in an environment that supposedly were  not their normal resident. Although, the actions that took place in these two stories it did not effect them because of the setting, but because of their personality. It doesn’t matter where someone lives, those are just temporary fixes. Eventually everyone will be who they are regardless of the environment you would have to work on their own issues in order to make any relationship work.

Ravages

Ravage (verb) – cause severe and extensive damage to

This was written in the “The Yellow Wall-Paper”. P61

“The furniture in this room is no worse than inharmonious, however, for we had to bring all from downstairs. I suppose when this was used as a playroom they has to take the nursery things out, and no wonder! I never saw such ravages as the children have made here.”

The narrator is describing how the furniture in the room does not look pleasant, to be in used. She assumes that the children who were her before is the reason why the furniture may look this way. Due to the major damage, she thought it may be a playroom which can mean there was a lot ramping and action going on in the room.

(3)Source: www.google.com – Search engine “Ravage definition”

Jarred

Jarred (verb) –  to have a harshly unpleasant or perturbing effect on one’s nerves,feelings, thoughts, etc.

This was written in “The Cottagette” towards the end of the story. P.50

“When you took to cooking it jarred me. I have been a cook, I tell you, and I know what it is. I hated it–to see my wood-flower in a kitchen.”

In this statement, Ford Mathews means that he did not like see his soon to be fiancée working in the kitchen. He knew how it feel to work in the kitchen so hurts to put Malda through that predicament.

Source: http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/jarred

The Cottagette

The story “The Cottagette”, the narrator Malda shows to be reliable. In the beginning of the story, she talks about the love she has for Ford Mathews. She shows her love for Mr. Mathews by doing things she does not normally do. She likes music and art. However, she starts to do housework such as cleaning and cooking to please Mr. Mathews. Lois, Malda friend give her advice on things she need to do to attract Ford Mathews attention.

“Don’t be foolish, child,”said Lois, this is serious. What they care for most after all is domesticity. Of course they’ll fall in love with anything; but what they want to marry is a homemaker. Now we are living here in an idyllic sort of way, quite conductive to falling in love, but no temptation to marriage. If I were you–if i really loved this man and wished to marry him, I would make a home of this place.”

Malda seems to think that Lois has experiences due to the fact that she has been married before, however also has been divorced. She feels that she knows what to look for in a man and what a man wants. So Malda starts to do this things to impress Mathews to please him. Towards the end of the story when Ford Mathews takes her out to Hugh’s Peak and brought lunch that he prepared for them, he proposed. However, Mathews had one condition which was Malda to stop cooking. He knew that her being a homemaker was not her cup of tea. He fell in love with the women who was an artist soul. He wanted to married the women he knew from the beginning who sees beauty and giving it to others. After she started to cook and clean, she stop paying attention to her true gift which is being an artist.

Utopia is an imagined place where everything is perfect, there’s happiness and joy. In “The Cottagette” the narrator Malda found love. Even though she thought she would have to do certain “roles” to keep her relationship from being at stake. The man she loved, loved her for exactly the person she is and did not want to change anything about her. He proposed, as long as she does what she love as an artist, while he’ll take over the cooking. Malda did not have to follow the stereotypical way of what roles women she play in a relationship. Mathews was able to explain that to her as stated,

“It is not true, always, my dear,” said he, “that the way to man’s heart is through his stomach; at least it’s not the only way…”

This settings shows utopia because Malda fell in love and was proposed to without changing anything about herself. In addition, she was able to follow her dreams in what she want to do in life. “It is not true, always, my dear,” said he, “that the way to man’s heart is through his stomach; at least it’s not the only way…”

The Yellow Wall-Paper

In the story “The Yellow Wall-Paper”, I felt that the narrator was unreliable, especially when it came to her husband. In the beginning of the story, the narrator states “John is practical in the extreme. He has no patience with faith, an intense horror of superstition, and scoffs openly at any talk of things not to be felt and seen and put down in figures.” However, her husband John actually does follow these traits, there were times that he did the opposite. For example, when the narrator is not making any progress by showing sign that she is getting better, John threatens her by saying he would send her Weir Mitchell. Later on in the story, John has a different perspective. The narrator states John actually having faith by giving her hope. “John says I musn’t lose my strength, and has me take cod liver oil and lots of tonics…” These types of actions play through back and forth throughout the story. One minute John is angry and upset, then secondly he shows a different character. The narrator says she becomes a burden to him, instead of doing what the typical wife roles such as helping him and taking care of their baby. However, in this case he is taking care of her as if she was the child and helping her through her depression. “And dear John gathered me up in his arms, and just carried me upstairs and laid me on the bed, and sat by me and read to me till it tired my head. He said I was his darling and his comfort and all he had, and that I must take care of myself for his sake, and keep well.” In this quote, John shows another side of him by being caring and attentive towards his wife.

Dystopia is an imagined placed where things are unhappy, unpleasant or case in bad setting.  The narrator in “The Yellow Wall-Paper” was very interested with wallpaper in the room than any other disturbing things that surrounded her. Towards the mid-end of the story she realized a particular pattern with this mysterious yellow wallpaper. She put all her attention towards this yellow wallpaper to figure out the pattern before anyone else does. She became motivated every day and night of coming closer to figure out this image. When she finally did, it was an image of a creeping women, “It is the same woman, I know, for she is always creeping, and most women do not creep by daylight. I see her on that long road under the trees, creeping along, and when a carriage comes she hides under the blackberry vines. I don’t blame her a bit. It must be very humiliating to be caught creeping by daylight! Then she realized the creeping women was her all along inside those yellow wall paper of the person who she come to be.

Obstinate

Obstinate (The story of “The Metamorphosis”)
Adjective
To firmly or stubbornly adhering to one’s purpose.
Person can be characterized by inflexible persistence or an yielding attitude.

But since he had been in work he had become more obstinate and would always insist on staying longer at the table, even though he regularly fell asleep and it was then harder than ever to persuade him to exchange the chair for his bed.
 This is when someone stick to what they believe in, refusing to change on how they feel about their opinion. This can cause the person to come off as stubborn. It may be hard to change this person gut feeling.
Source: http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/obstinate

Serpentine

Serpentine(The story of “Young Goodman Brown”) by Nathaniel Hawthorne

Noun
-It can be considered as a snake.
Adjective
-It can be mottled or spotted like a snake skin
-A thing in the shape of a winding curve or line, in particular
He had cast up his eyes in astonishment, and looking down again, beheld neither Goody Cloyse nor the serpentine staff, but his fellow-traveller alone, who waited for him as calmly as if nothing had happened.
It is something that looks like a rock or a stone and feels like snake skin. It can come in many different shapes or forms, it looks very earthly and may be green.

Source: www.google.com search engine “Serpentine”

The Metamorphosis

 

“The Metamorphosis” can be read allegorically. Franz Kafka seems uses Gregor’s metamorphosis into a bug as a statement or symbol of something that happens in people’s life. I felt that Gregor turning into a bug is extremely significant to the story. People are used for many things in life to help enhances someone else’s life. Many times when a person is no longer significant, the user can be treated as if they are not important. As if the person had never done anything for them before or appreciate everything they have done for them in the past. This is exactly what has happen in the story. After the family finds out their son/ brother has turned into a bug, they slowly change their feelings towards him. He becomes a burden to the family. Grete takes on the job of feeding him and cleaning up after him. His father becomes frustrated and stressed. They could not depend on Gregor due to the fact that he became useless. He could no longer work to provide for his family. He was the only one working paying the bills. Life has rendered Gregor insignificantly.

Due to the family needing money, they brought in three new gentlemen as tenants to live to bring in money into the household. One night when the three men were listening to Grete the daughter playing the violin Gregor came out of his room to listen. The middle man out of the three noticed the “bug” Gregor and highly did not tolerant rodents. Therefore, the three gentlemen said they would not pay for rent. This made a huge impact towards the family especially Grete. She came to the conclusion that Gregor is not returning back to his normal state and all he has done is be a burden to the family. She felt like he was no longer part of the family, he was a monster. The father felt exactly the same way and thought that Gregor should leave too. This took a toll towards Gregor and towards the next day he passes away. After he died the family felt a weight has been lifted off of them. The moved on with their live as if Gregor has never existed.

Kafka uses Gregor and his metamorphosis to speak to a bigger societal problem. As stated above, his family discards him because he can no longer take care of them. His sister morphed by becoming the provider and maturing into a young women. In this case, I think that kafkaesque means change. Gregor went from being the provider to becoming useless. This can also be a message as him going from a big to small from him morphing into a bug. After reading the definition for kafkaesque it means characteristic or reminiscent of the oppressive or nightmarish qualities. Due to this story “The Metamorphosis” this meaning make sense because in the beginning of the story when Gregor woke up, he could not turn over on his side. He had realized that he has morphed into a bug which can be a great nightmare. This is why he quickly went back to sleep to disremember his thoughts of what he has become.

Pauper

noun
1. a person without any means of support, especially a destitute person who depends on aid from public welfare funds or charity.
2. a very poor person.
 The vocabulary word was written in the story “A Rose for Emily” by Williams Faulkner.
When her father died, it got about that the house was all that was left to her; and in a way, people were glad. At last they could pity Miss Emily. Being left alone, and a pauper, she had become humanized.
Miss Emily was a pauper after her father death, all she has left was the house, nothing else to her name. She didn’t have a job or anything, only minor things another person done for her such as picking up groceries.
Source: http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/pauper?s=t