I’m exhausted
Because I cannot fall asleep always
My mind is chaotic
Meditation helps me a lot
I am trying
I am trying to maintain my normal status mentally
I am trying to maintain all progresses of every things that I am doing
Feel so good that I know how to adjust myself
Feel so lucky that i did it
Think of the origin of all these chaos
Why am i so tired
Have I thought a lot
There is an adage in Chinese
“Stay in peace”
“Think of danger”
I always want to make things perfect
But I am not competent
But I did not fail
But I did not get the best outcome
But I did not get the worst one
Too many demands to self
Because of constellation
I finally have my consciousness open
I finally be aware of what I should spend time on
My family
My study
My job
No matter with being a son or breadwinner
Life is roller coaster
Life is many flavors
Life is intangible
Big ups and downs
I am always confused
It is like a math that I never ever solve
What is the meaning
Go to school
Go to workplace
Even go home
Learn to accept these
Learn to understand what these want to tell and teach you
Everything existing comes with reasons
Do what you think
But think before you do
Turn your brainstorm mode on
But remember to take rest
Manage time
Fine to be lazy but after accomplish all
Be grateful
Be respectful
Be polite
All these life experience help me grew
It is like a math that I never ever solve
That line stood out to me because I am curious. Did you happen to ever solve that math problem?
Perhaps I should say that life is like a multiple steps math problem and I’m still in procedure
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Everything existing comes with reasons caught my eye because it made me relate to the fact that I always question why do things happen or come to be in life?
just try to accept the things happened on you and try to understand what it wanna tell you. Let’s mention a worst example, the pandemic. It’s warning us that how crucial the life is
I totally stood out of all the words that you said, It feel like I’m on the same position as you, where works make you exhausted. Also I totally agree with all of your words specially at the where you said that all made yourself grew up.
Question is this based in your high school experience?
Yes, or based on the life i immigrated here. Because after few days i landed on USA, i attend high school in new york immediately and start working since first day of high school
“I am trying to maintain my normal status mentally“ i really love this quote from you !!! The fact that i know exactly what you mean and feel . I understand things we do for ourselves is for us to better ourselves but sometimes there’s things that kind of stops us or makes us overthink .
yeah! i strongly agree with what you say
Amazing poem and some wonderful comments from classmates. I’m going to make a suggestion based on something Nevena asked about on Slack, and that is to add a short paragraph after the poem that gives us some context. What you’ve said in reply to these comments would be perfect — when you immigrated, had to start working right away, this is mostly about high school, etc. I think that would help your workshop partners make more sense of the poem (although I think it’s great already).
I don’t know if you’re at all worried about grammar issues. Frankly, I don’t really care because this is very much you, and I don’t want to interfere with that. So don’t worry about it; just add that short paragraph when you do your draft for the Google Drive folder, and you’re good to go!