In fourth grade, my grades had started dropping and i had to take a reading and writting test. and i learned i have a reading/learning dissability. the next year i was put into resourse, which is pretty much like extra help. i would have to leave the class with a couple other kids everyday, and do other work with a different teacher. everytime i would leave the room, i felt weird, confused and left out. at that time, i felt like nothing was happening, especially since i didnt make any new friends or have any friends there and i didnt really understand why i was there in the first place. it would be fun sometimes, we would play writting or spelling games on fridays and we wold get prizes, and i would be able to walk back to class with a cool little toy. but the rest of fifth grade want the best in that aspect. i would miss out on somethings, i remmeber when all the girls had the “talk”, i was taking a reading/wrting test, and i walked in half way through the talk and the teacher had to bring me a chair in front of everybody. from that point forword it went well. i had resourse every year, and in sixth grade i had actually understood why i was in the class and i met my best friend in that class.

Over the years i really never realized how much it had actually helped me with my reading. in ninth grade was my last year of resourse, and it was with my best friend! when we found out we both werent coming back, we were really sad, devestated and i was really scared. i was so scared that i would have no available help for me when i needed it. after my last year of resourse, thats when i realzied i had actually grown with my skills. i had pretty much gone to resourse every other day those two years in eighth and ninth grade, doing homework, and thats it. i didnt need any help, and that felt good! the next three years in high school, the only help i got was extra time on tests, finals and regents, which made me feel a lot more safe and comforatable. if im being completley honest, i didnt even use it that often. since then i think i have done fine with my reading. although, i do feel like i read slow and i have to reread whatever i read, when theres questions following it.