A turning point of my education life was in my senior year of high school, it all started when coronavirus came to action. It was the end of my junior year, I was excited that I was reaching the last year of high school. I thought that coronavirus was gonna be temporary and everything was gonna be put under control by senior year. Sadly that wasn’t the case, I was still doing remote learning and staying home . I’ve grown to hate remote learning over time, in which part of it became the reason for my downfall during senior year.

 It all started when we were all shut down… I was getting used to a routine that was unhealthy for me physically and mentally. Everyday I would stay up late at night, just slowly drown myself in my own dark thoughts. As the days went by I realized that I would slowly give up on myself.. I didn’t really care about anything anymore. I was depressed.. then when school started it got worse for me because I completely lost interest in participating, going to class and doing my work. I would usually keep an B+ or higher cause of the motivation I had gotten from the people around me but this time covid and my depression took over that. 

I was in a relationship with someone who was very toxic and mentally abusive to me. That took a toll on me as-well because I lost a lot of friends and family. He made me distance myself from the people who loved me the most. Part of it was my fault because I let him get to my head, I let him convince me to distance myself from the world. The teachers is my school started to notice that everyday I was loosing myself and my motivation. The teachers were concerned for my well being but for some odd reason they gave up on me as well. I was alone at that point. I just felt like giving up.

until one day someone really important to my life currently, told me I needed to get up from my bed start focusing on getting my grades on point, graduate and do something that would make me happy. That person told me the first thing I needed to do was break up with . i would say that it was one of most the hardest thing to do cause he wouldn’t let me leave, everyday was a struggle for me he would say things that would make me want to come back to him but thank god I had a friend that stopped me.  Now that I got that out of the way it was time for me to focus on school.

I would say focusing on school was extremely difficult because my teacher didn’t want to see me succeed anymore.  it was like they gave up on me… I mean I  understood why they would but I never expected it. It felt like all my teachers were against me, like they didn’t want me to graduate.