Tension. Ever since I began receiving outlook emails again, I started to feel that same weight on my shoulder that magically went away as soon as I submitted my last final during the fall semester. It was my first semester of college and I severely underestimated how hard it was going to be, especially since I had major senioritis just a few months before. My winter vacation went exactly as I planned it to go. After all the holidays, my days went by slow with not much to worry about. I was looking forward to the slowness of it all, as I felt like during the semester my days were very rushed.
My worries and concerns this semester is how efficient I will be as a student, and also making sure to manage the energy I put towards all my classes. It takes me so long to write things for a grade especially, as I second guess every sentence and feel like my work is just not good at all. Although I have mixed feelings towards online school, I do enjoy the part of me just staying in my pajamas all day, and not having to wake up super early just for the commute. But, I procrastinate very easily and I just completely zone out during online lectures. I also feel like staying inside all the time has given me a bit of social anxiety as well.
The photo that I wanted to add was the photo of my cat, Luna. Very common name, I know. I chose it because I really want to spoil her, but I know I’ll need a well paying career for that. She supports me by sleeping in my lap during lectures and during the nights I stay up in order to complete assignments or projects.
This is the phrase that stood out to me most: “…as I second guess every sentence and feel like my work is just not good at all.”
I read that, and I thought, uh oh, this student will NOT be prepared for how I teach writing! And I mean unprepared in a good way, as in: Every sentence that you write is good enough, because YOU wrote it — as long as it is honest and true. For instance, everything you wrote HERE was totally clear and so honest. I think others would agree.
Writing’s forms are as different as social situations, moods, people. And adapting to the different forms can be hard. True.
However, I already have the sense that, with a desire to write and work, you will totally succeed.
Okay, Luna is gorgeous. And the name means “moon,” so I like it even more, because it has a kind of poetic language to it.
: )
Welcome, Camila.