Memory Keeper of When I Didn’t Have Anxiety or Depression by Christy Martinez

Remember what it was like to be high?

And not on what ifs and jitters?

Back when you were more than a mosh pit of feelings

Of nothingness

and raindrops disintegrating across the car window

All wind and laughter

Heaviness diffused in sandalwood oils

A full-blown fall leaves lover

Milly Quezada’s Vive!, on repeat

Yours truly, instant Prozac

Back when a swallowtail butterfly was an answered prayer

And your body did not resist you

Still held you,

still