Growing up I was raised into a Puerto Rican Catholic family . The thing was I was I did not know how to speak Spanish and I did feel comfortable identifying with being Catholic . Its not that I did like Catholic’s but I felt I was being forced into being a catholic . Not being able to speak Spanish and not wanting to identify with being Catholic when I was younger caused a lot of tension between my family and I . They’ve felt like I didn’t want to pick up on the Spanish . Everyone in my house hold spoke Spanish but me . Not knowing Spanish drained me . I tried many times to try to be 100% as “fluent” in Spanish but it wasn’t enough for them .
When I was about 17 years old one night I was watching a random video and what was said that “if you keep trying to satisfy people , you’ll never be satisfy” that put fear into my heart. I decide to express my well made up mind that I did not want to into between two world . The two world that I felt was stuck in between was living in my families expectation of them wanting me to know Spanish / identifying with being catholic and putting my self first . When i first came out they said I was being disrespectful . To answer your question I did not speak in a disrespectful manner nor did I rise my voice . It was more about me not wanting to follow their expectation . After a while they accepted me .
“If you keep trying to satisfy people, you’ll never be satisfied” that’s something I always lived by, and honestly it helped me so much with making decisions.
2. Migdalia – What is the connection between speaking Spanish and being Catholic?
This is very heartfelt story – actually you need to turn it into a story. But your intention is very moving.
Growing up I was raised into a Puerto Rican Catholic family . The thing was I was I did not know how to speak Spanish and I did feel comfortable identifying with being Catholic . Its not that I did like Catholic’s but I felt I was being forced into being a catholic . Not being able to speak Spanish and not wanting to identify with being Catholic when I was younger caused a lot of tension between my family and I . They’ve felt like I didn’t want to pick up on the Spanish . Everyone in my house hold spoke Spanish but me . Not knowing Spanish drained me [GOOD Place to create a SCENE: HOW does your family speak? What do they say in the kitchen, when watching TV, find a memory of the best scene showing how their constant Spanish speaking “drains” you. What do you feel? HOW do you react? SHOW ME with scene of HOW YOU BEHAVE – Don’t just tell me – CREATE A SCENE WITH CSD to SHOW ME] . I tried many times to try to be 100% as “fluent” in Spanish but it wasn’t enough for them . [WHAT DID THEY SAY TO YOU? WHAT DID YOU SAY BACK?]
When I was about 17 years old one night I was watching a random video and what was said that “if you keep trying to satisfy people , you’ll never be satisfy” that put fear into my heart. [GOOD PLACE FOR A SCENE—WHERE were you when you saw the video? In your house? In your bedroom? Late at night? After a bad day at church? HOW did the video catch your eye? WHAT “fear” did you feel? WERE you by yourself? CSD: CONCRETE SPECIFIC DETAILS NEEDED.]
I decide to express my well made up mind that I did not want to into between two world . The two world that I felt was stuck in between was living in my families expectation of them wanting me to know Spanish / identifying with being catholic and putting my self first . When i first came out they said I was being disrespectful . To answer your question I did not speak in a disrespectful manner nor did I rise my voice . It was more about me not wanting to follow their expectation . After a while they accepted me .
SO finding this video message sounds like a very important formative experience for you. What have you learned about yourself? How has this shaped you? in your school life? In your career goals? How has this changed YOU?