During the time of pandemic the challenges which I am facing in “doing school”，also is a challenges that I am facing in my real life. It is not an physical object，but my mental bottle neck. When the first day I came to City Tech, I was exciting and nervous, because I know this is a new star point in my life，and I did not pass the CATW English test. I understood if I fail the CATW several times，I will be expulsion from City Tech. I was so anxiety and helpless in this new place，no friend，no help，only unknow. The way I dealt the problem was to pay more effort to everything, to class, to listen, to understand. I ask the same question for many times just to confirm, I am on a right page and doing the right things. The effort I paid cause I always ahead of my classmate, they look at me like Mr. Who Know Everything, in most of my class? Until now I still have 3.6 GPA. Is it a lot? I don’t know, but my friend said that is a lot. I know, I did not act like a student have 3.6 GPA.wheel I proud of myself, the danger is closer, things changing in my mind.
My last semester was a totally disaster. I had class in everyday, Monday to Sunday no break and 4-5 lab report per week, and project, exam. I was extremely tired. I decided, I had to make an easy schedule for this semester. Everything should be easy; I gave myself a break to my brain and body you can have your time to rest since the end of the 2019 fall semester.
In the beginning of 2020 spring semester, I really the change, I am not willing to pay any extra effort and expect things solve by themselves. I am like a battery running out of power or an old man. I am losing my passion, my energy. The problem is the change in my mental, my attitude did not change as the end of break, caused the laziness. I spent 3-4 week to adjust my attitude, it works but, too late something I have already missing, hard to caught up.
