Destiny Rodriguez
Professor Jewell
ENG 1101
9 September 2019
I’m apart of a program called the Liberty Partnership Program, and what they do is prepare you for your future. In this program They’ve allowed me to see what my strong suits were and what I need to work on. At the time I was quite the shy type which by the way I still am. Even though I know how to read out loud or answer a question I choose not to simply because I don’t like to speak. There’s nothing wrong with me I just rather be quiet. Knowing that, they decided to have me go out of my comfort zone and read a mini speech, which wasn’t a problem except for the part where they had me reading this little passage constantly out loud to the top of my lungs . My god that was so annoying and awfully frustrating. It felt like no matter how loud I get it just doesn’t seem to be enough because I have to keep starting over again. It’s funny because I usually don’t sweat but that day my body was reacting all types of ways. Some of which I didn’t even think I would ever feel. Like scared to get it wrong or shocked that I didn’t get it right after the second time or even maybe more so breathing heavy while reading again and again and again . It was just so stressful. There I was reading, which my voice was pretty vocal, clear enough for everyone to hear, well so I thought , and then poof an unusual comment had come my way. “Start over and project your voice louder”. In my head I’m like what is wrong with this lady I know she heard me. But it’s whatever I simply continued to read. After the second time again with the nonsense “read it again take your hands out of your pockets”. Now that was just ridiculous. Like seriously my hands in my pockets is why I need to read again? I was starting to get really pissed off . So for the rest of the time they had me rereading I had that look where it was like “yeah this lady is crazy” kind of look.she couldn’t be serious. That had to be one of the worst things I had to do when it came to reading. What kind of person would put a child through such anxiety and hardships? Shouldn’t that be illegal? That felt completely unfair to me. Having me read countless amount of times knowing how I am about speaking and knowing how uncomfortable that feels. Have you ever got that feeling where you had to read out loud and it feels like you were never going to stop reading, because it felt like you had endless words to spit out from that huge brain of ours. They really thought I was capable of completing that task? Yeah Ight. I doubted myself more believe it or not when I found of the little paragraph was a tongue twister. That was when I really lost it. The confidence started to fade , my projection vanished, and my will for reading was coming to an end . Which quite frankly I already knew I wouldn’t like to read off of my boredom but this just made my bad thoughts on it even worse.
