Blog 5: Finding Courage (in Public Speaking)

Public speaking was not my strong suit. I have a theatre background, but I never did any public speaking. In theatre class, I was playing someone else, I was a character. When I hit the stage, I was Egeus, Alonso, or someone funny, but I was never Jerome. I did not find myself funny at times. Every time Jerome came on stage, he would get stuck in his head and mess up. I told myself I could never, ever do public speaking.

David told to my first experience of public speaking, with the internship, will be done in a classroom. My heart dropped. He told me I did not have to worry because the only thing I had to do was read off of a paper in front of a classroom. My heart dropped even more. I was going to be in front of class and I had to read. I thought to myself, “what if I messed up! I would look like someone who could not read.” In theater class, I was told not to read from a paper because people cannot connect with me and I would not be connecting with the audience.

David wanted me to observe him for the first week until I get the hang of it. I was nervous in even saying my name. I just passed out voter registration forms. We had to go from class to class and do this. I prayed to God for the professors to say no because I did NOT want to do it. God answered my prayers so fast because every professor denied us. Thank you, God. As the days went by, I knew I let him down. He did not have to say it because I could tell from his face. I stopped praying against us and prayed for some courage. That was the day the roles were reversed, David had me read and he observed me. I think did well, but I did mess up on a few parts of my speech. David was there to help me, and we got thirteen people to register to vote. I felt happy, excited, courageous.