Introduction:
In this project “Writing my brain” I will have the opportunity to go over my daily thoughts one by one and reflect on them. Throughout this project we had the opportunity to write down our daily thoughts, pick out what was most important and take photos that represented that moment. Then we had to write an essay about our daily thoughts, quoting ourselves or others, basing on the photos etc. This is my project and I hope you enjoy it.
THINKING in WRITING
FRIDAY 19th
– I am so sleepy. I seriously don’t want to go to work today. Should i take a full shower or just a body shower?
-Okay I’m taking forever to find out what to wear I’m late already.
-This bus is taking forever to come, I’m just going to walk there, I’ll get there in time hopefully.
-Did i text “goodmorning” to my mom today? okay, let me have a quick chat with her and tell her what’s new.
-It’s so busy here at work! And the manager is driving me crazy today. Note to self: next week when I’m off I’m going to find a new job, i think the mall is hiring.
-Finally lunch break! Can’t wait to get home and meet my boyfriend to help him shopping! Haven’t seen him for a week already.
-Since I’m going by the city what should i wear? Is it cold? Skirt or jeans?
-I had a great time on my way to 34th street. Now i hope this mall has all the stuff he needs because I’m not planning to go to e different mall everyday.
-He is driving me crazy! He likes everything and then he likes nothing. Im craving Gyros. I want to leave.
-Finally now I’m full! That gyro was heaven. Now I’m happy and full of energy
-It’s so much traffic! But at least we have time to talk and make plans for the weekend.
-Finally home I’m so tired but I have to clean and cook for my brother. I have no idea what he wants for tonight, pasta with mushrooms perhaps. I’ll just make that, is easy and it doesn’t take forever.
-Now I’m in bed. I have work tomorrow early in the morning and i have to get a good sleep. I’ll talk to my mom again and tell her what i did today, hopefully she’s awake.
-So i need to find that new job, i need to help my brother to pay the rent, lately, he’s been paying it by himself. And I’ll try to save money so i could go back to my country to visit my family in summer. I miss them so much.
-Tomorrow i have so much to do! work, go out, call my phone company, call the internet company, buy food groceries , go over the homeworks and who knows what else comes in the way.
Thinking Visually
Work
Family time
Cooking time
Thinking Rhetorically and Reflectively:
In this project I have the opportunity to share with you my daily thoughts and to reflect on them. My name is Fjoralba Hoxha and I’m a student in City College Of Technology, better known as City Tech. I am seventeen years old and I came to America about three years ago from a beautiful, small country in Europe called Albania. I moved here to get a better education and to be honest I’m very proud of myself. Even though I was going through rough times I managed to graduate High School with a high GPA while going to work at the same time, and now I started college majoring on Paralegal Assistance 1st year and so far is going great. All I want in this life is to become somebody so I could have a bright future ahead of me and to make my loved ones happy and proud. And I’m a believer as long as I push myself and never give up no matter how hard it might be. On the other hand I argue that my daily thoughts most of the time are just focused on the present and not much about the future.
One of the reasons why I think my thoughts are focused only in the present and not in the future is because I’m always rushing and most of the time busy so I don’t have time to think much about what is going to happen later on. To be honest while I was writing down my thoughts almost every half of an hour I was thinking this project assigned to me was pointless since a lot of people, in this case me do not have time to pick up a pencil and write about our thoughts. But later on while I was reading over what I wrote I realized I do not think about important stuff while I’m doing something. It’s actually the total opposite, I just want to get stuff done and move to the next step. I also realized the only time I think deeper about my future is when I’m alone at night laying in bed and making plans. This fact made me feel so bad and made me realize I need improvement otherwise when life hits me with something serious when I least expect it, I wouldn’t be able to get out of it if my thoughts aren’t at the right place.
Let me talk about an example. On my daily thoughts I wrote “ It’s so busy here at work! And the manager is driving me crazy today. Note to self: next week when I’m off I’m going to find a new job, I think the mall is hiring.” (fjori96. Part 5.web) The way I see it on this sentence the important thought is “… when I’m off I’m going to find a new job, I think the mall is hiring.” Now you would think that later on I got more information about the places that were hiring, what day exactly should I go etc. but guess what? Based on my second sentence written by me not more than thirty minutes later states “Finally lunch break! Can’t wait to get home and meet my boyfriend to help him shopping! Haven’t seen him for a week already” (fjori96. Part6.web) This shows me that my thoughts at a very busy time are just momentarily and not actual plans because if it was then on my lunch break I would do or think something more important then what I’m going to do for entertainment later on. This fact makes me realize that I should pay more attention to what I think. Why I think that way? And what should I do to accomplish whatever I was thinking.
I personally believe that another reason why I attend to not pay much of attention to my thoughts is because I get distracted very quickly by entertainment devices, websites and people. Even though I might be busy at work or in the house or with homeworks, parts of my mind are thinking about what is new on Instagram or what is new on Facebook. Did someone hit me up? Did anyone send me a friend request? These type of thoughts make you forget the important stuff or get distracted and also lose focus. And I am pretty sure that I am not the only one, based on what I see everyday on the streets, I rarely see two people making a conversation, most of the time I see people of any age keeping their head down and being focused on the electronic device and not what is actually going on around them. And obviously I am one of them and this makes me sick. Since I do not live with my parents but only with my brother, I attend to always check my phone and see if one of my family members texted me. Me talking to my mom is an everyday routine and I’m very happy that it is. To be honest she means more than the world to me and I thank God that now a days we have every type of way to communicate with our loved ones to a different continent. (hoxha.Photo2.“familytime”) But then again even though for me talking to my mother and family is like therapy, it requires time and effort. Because maybe at that time I could’ve been doing some house work, cook for my brother or use the extra time to study and accomplish the important assignments without rushing.
As I said on my first paragraph I noticed that my deep thoughts and actual plans for the future happen at night when I’m alone and around me is quiet. For example on my day of thoughts I wrote “So I need to find that new job, I need to help my brother to pay the rent, lately , he’s been paying it by himself. And I’ll try to save money so I could go back to my country to visit my family in the summer. I miss them so much” (fjori96.part14.web) and also about thirty minutes later I wrote “Tomorrow I have so much to do! Work , go out, call my phone company, call the internet company, buy food groceries , go over the homeworks and who knows what else comes in the way.” (fjori96.part15.web) I read these two statements over and over the day after and realized that in around one hour I only thought about my desires, thoughts, and plans for my future. This makes me question myself why don’t I focus more on my thoughts like I do when I’m alone at night. The first impression that you give means a lot in life and if people see you as someone who is always rushing, moving and not thinking twice before they do something, well, definitely you won’t give a good first expression and that fact does not help you move forward in life.
In conclusion, I believe that this project will change the way I think for sure. Going over all my thoughts made me realize that my thoughts are more focused at the present and not much at the future, except when I’m alone. Which from now on even though I might be very busy I will always try to pay attention to my own thoughts and try to accomplish them as soon as I can. Because only like this I will be able to accomplish my goal in life.
Work cited
Fjori96 [Fjoralba Hoxha].”Re:Project1:Thinking in Writing.” Openlab.English1101D346. English Compostion1 Fall 2014.Web.15 October 2014.
Hoxha,Fjoralba “Work” Flickr.web.15October2014
Hoxha,Fjoralba “Family time” Flickr.web. 15October2014
Hoxha,Fjoralba “Cooking time” Flickr.web. 15 October2014