DIARY OF INDOOR ME, 2020 NYC
ZAHIRA SANTANA, ENGLISH 1101 361
MARCH 23-26, 2020
March 23, 2020 – Whiteplains, Bronx, New York City
1:00 pm
Dear Diary,
I am writing this in the afternoon. I’ve just woken up to do my classwork for my English class. I’ve not yet eaten anything, I’m still in bed with my nice warm blanket over me as it’s raining outside. I haven’t been up too much, feels so weird being stuck in the same four walls every single minute, hour , day, week etc. I’ve been in self isolation since March 17.
As I write this it doesn’t feel real that not so long ago I could go out and enjoy a nice sunny day with my friends. I just hope that soon I’ll be able to go back to that as well as everyone else.
March 24, 2020 – Whiteplains, Bronx, New York City
4:42 pm
Dear Diary,
Im Writing this after a very long day it’s about 4:42 and I’ve just finished doing two Midterms one for Math and another for my fashion class. Even though they were long and tiring it felt good to have my mind focused on something else. I’m going crazy, staying home is so boring and frustrating all I think about is when are things going to get better.
When are people going to fallow what they are being told to do so ,when can we  go out to the world again. I miss going outside and feeling the warm sun. As I sit in my dinning room table I think about the things we have to appreciate.Sometimes when we have everything we don’t appreciate it and when we no longer do we do. When this crisis passes I want to start enjoying life even more and appreciating it.
March 25, 2020 – Whiteplains, Bronx, New York City
12:25 pm
Dear Diary,
Woke up not so long ago , just been laying down in my bed thinking about what I’m going to do today so I don’t go crazy.
6:00 pm
I’m laying down what a surprise!. I’ve just finished watch a few episodes of a series I’m watching is called “ Good Girls” during this time I can definitely say that watching shows is something that’s definitely helping me say sane.
10:00 pm
I’m here again  just thinking, being doing that a lot since I’ve had a lot of time in my hands. I think about how unfair things are , how sad and worrying things are getting every day more people die. It makes me feel so annoyed that there’s not much that the government is doing. Every day of this week I wake up, get my phone and go through my emails. To see an email from the New York Times they talk about doing certain things like getting money and in every email they repeat the same part and nothing is done about it nothing has changed.
My head is filled  with so many emotions…
March 26, 2020 – Whiteplains, Bronx, New York City
11:30 am
Dear Diary,
Woke up about a few minutes ago up but not really excited because I already know is going to be the same like yesterday. Feels like I’m stuck in the same cycle.
12:12 pm
You know what I change my mind I’m going to try to make today a fun day or at least an interesting one. I’m going to do something new today like paint what going on in my head , I find that the worst situations can some times make the most beautiful art. Will see were the day takes us one thing I do know is that I am grateful that all my family is doing well.
I’m about to go eat some spaghetti my mom made yesterday and then I’m going to clean my house and then will see were the day goes…
I like how you weigh in so honestly and in the moment. I like that you re-state WHITEPLAINS, BRONX (etc) and I can’t describe why. Almost like you are on a space ship, and it is going to the same place every day. Or are in a prison and the sense of confinement is being reinforced by the fact that it isn’t changing. Or maybe for the simple fact that just saying where you are every day says it all.
“There you are.”
And what shifts is your mood, your work..you.
so delightful to read this, Zahira.
-Prof. S.
Thank you professor I’m glad you enjoyed reading it , I really wanted to be honest and raw about how I’ve been feeling so I’m glad you liked it. Hope all is well .
-Zahira S.