DIARY OF INDOOR ME, 2020 NYC
ZAHIRA SANTANA, ENGLISH 1101 361
MARCH 23-26, 2020
March 23, 2020 ā Whiteplains, Bronx, New York City
1:00 pm
Dear Diary,
I am writing this in the afternoon. Iāve just woken up to do my classwork for my English class. Iāve not yet eaten anything, Iām still in bed with my nice warm blanket over me as itās raining outside. I havenāt been up too much, feels so weird being stuck in the same four walls every single minute, hour , day, week etc. Iāve been in self isolation since March 17.
As I write this it doesnāt feel real that not so long ago I could go out and enjoy a nice sunny day with my friends. I just hope that soon Iāll be able to go back to that as well as everyone else.
March 24, 2020 ā Whiteplains, Bronx, New York City
4:42 pm
Dear Diary,
Im Writing this after a very long day itās about 4:42 and Iāve just finished doing two Midterms one for Math and another for my fashion class. Even though they were long and tiring it felt good to have my mind focused on something else. Iām going crazy, staying home is so boring and frustrating all I think about is when are things going to get better.
When are people going to fallow what they are being told to do so ,when can we Ā go out to the world again. I miss going outside and feeling the warm sun. As I sit in my dinning room table I think about the things we have to appreciate.Sometimes when we have everything we donāt appreciate it and when we no longer do we do. When this crisis passes I want to start enjoying life even more and appreciating it.
March 25, 2020 ā Whiteplains, Bronx, New York City
12:25 pm
Dear Diary,
Woke up not so long ago , just been laying down in my bed thinking about what Iām going to do today so I donāt go crazy.
6:00 pm
Iām laying down what a surprise!. Iāve just finished watch a few episodes of a series Iām watching is called ā Good Girlsā during this time I can definitely say that watching shows is something thatās definitely helping me say sane.
10:00 pm
Iām here again Ā just thinking, being doing that a lot since Iāve had a lot of time in my hands. I think about how unfair things are , how sad and worrying things are getting every day more people die. It makes me feel so annoyed that thereās not much that the government is doing. Every day of this week I wake up, get my phone and go through my emails. To see an email from the New York Times they talk about doing certain things like getting money and in every email they repeat the same part and nothing is done about it nothing has changed.
My head is filled Ā with so many emotionsā¦
March 26, 2020 ā Whiteplains, Bronx, New York City
11:30 am
Dear Diary,
Woke up about a few minutes ago up but not really excited because I already know is going to be the same like yesterday. Feels like Iām stuck in the same cycle.
12:12 pm
You know what I change my mind Iām going to try to make today a fun day or at least an interesting one. Iām going to do something new today like paint what going on in my head , I find that the worst situations can some times make the most beautiful art. Will see were the day takes us one thing I do know is that I am grateful that all my family is doing well.
Iām about to go eat some spaghetti my mom made yesterday and then Iām going to clean my house and then will see were the day goesā¦
I like how you weigh in so honestly and in the moment. I like that you re-state WHITEPLAINS, BRONX (etc) and I can’t describe why. Almost like you are on a space ship, and it is going to the same place every day. Or are in a prison and the sense of confinement is being reinforced by the fact that it isn’t changing. Or maybe for the simple fact that just saying where you are every day says it all.
“There you are.”
And what shifts is your mood, your work..you.
so delightful to read this, Zahira.
-Prof. S.
Thank you professor Iām glad you enjoyed reading it , I really wanted to be honest and raw about how Iāve been feeling so Iām glad you liked it. Hope all is well .
-Zahira S.