Elijah Heredia coffee house #2

The biggest learning experience I have had recently was just to simply try at things and not be afraid to lose  All though it seems very simple it has a deeper meaning, see when I was younger as soon as things got hard I would just give up or stick to doing things the easier way. When I felt school work was too hard I would just give up and not do an assignment or goof off in class because I did not understand the work so I did not care for it. This issue was also apparent in sports for me if the people I played with were better I would just not try even in video games I would often play on the lowest difficulty which would cause me to be frustrated when playing a friend or family member because I would lose due to them playing the game on a much higher difficulty making them better. It was not till my senior year of high school where ironically a video game I played when avoiding school work during the quarantine taught me this lesson. The game was NBA 2k20 and I always hated how much better my friends were than me till my family member who also was better told me I could never get better if I only play on rookie difficulty. So I started playing every day on the highest difficulty and started getting better and better. See I believe that subconsciously I chose to lose without trying because I was always scared to lose when trying because I did not want to feel like a loser. Even as a kid in school or most of high school I did not try because I did not want to feel dumb which caused me to always have lower grades than everyone else. After senior year finished I spent all summer trying more at whatever I did finally came my first semester of college except I had to take a math start class so I spent what should have been my first semester of college relearning work from high school because I did not try in math. I participated in every class and did not care if I got a question wrong and looked “stupid “ to others because I knew I needed to learn math which was a subject I felt I lacked in a lot and ironically I ended up knowing and understanding most of the work. I ended up passing with the highest grade and I felt like if I would have had just tried and not have been afraid to fail in high school I probably would have had the same outcome. So now entering my first official semester I know I should try and not have any fear to fail or look “stupid “ or “lose” because that is the only way to improve in school, sports, games, pretty much in life