language journey

Throughout all of elementary, middle, and high school my experience with language and learning was not too good. I struggled with so many aspects of language to the point i thought I was dumb and not smart enough. I had plenty of teachers to guide me and teach me, but I was still not reaching grade level. It was to the point where my mom decided to put me in an IEP class because of how poor I was in not only english language but in other subjects. Being put in an IEP has its pros and cons but at the end of day it helped with my main subjects that I’ve been struggling to understand.I began to see two different teachers around 3rd grade. I would be removed from my class to see another teacher with a bunch of different kids. During this time I was annoyed by the class and thought it was useless. I hated being removed from my main classes to learn something at a much slower pace. I also felt very excluded from everyone else, all my friends were together and I was always left out of everything. Some mornings I would have to be at my IEP class instead of outside with my friends. My experience with IEP in elementary school was annoying mainly because I was never really looking forward to getting removed from class to sit in another class room for two hours each day. As I began middle school my mom decided that she was going to keep me in IEP because she saw no progress. I thought IEP was going to be different in middle school where i dint get removed from class but unfortunately it was the same as in elementary school. I had two different IEP teachers throughout middle school, one wasn’t as helpful as the other but I still learned something from being in that class. Something i started to realize was that the students would make fun of me or others in an IEP, they did not realize what the class was for and just assumed the class was for dumb students. Middle school really opened my eyes and made me realize that an IEP was only to benefit me and made me appreciate my teacher even more. Not only was I learning a lot more than the previous years, I also built a relationship with my teachers. In high school I began to notice that I no longer needed an IEP towards my last few years. My overall performance in school was better than normal. My teachers began to suggest that I be removed from IEP so my mom did what she thought was best and removed me. Being without it started to become a problem for me when I began to take my regents or any AP exam. I was always so used to having extra time on my exams to the point I started to depend on it. I’m a slow test taker and I needed way more time to finish my tests than the other students. During my SAT I had only limited time to take my test which led to me not finishing it on time and getting a very poor score. I was extremely devastated by this outcome because I knew that the SAT was extremely important for college. Luckily for me, due to covid colleges were making SAT scores optional. My problem with IEP was that I was relying on it too much towards the end. Having that extra time on tests was good but it never prepared me for when I won’t have extra time on tests, for example in college. It prepared me for harder levels but did not prepare me for tests. Another major problem I faced throughout middle, and high school was the stereotypes students were

putting out about IEP. It wasn’t easy hearing other students make fun of me and others in the IEP class, saying that we were dumb and not fit for the school. Made me second guess myself and my ability to learn which prevented me from actually trying. Even my friends would question me about the class and ask me why I was in it. They knew why but just wanted me to feel bad about myself. Overall my relationship with the educational system has taught me to embrace certain academic problems and learn from them. Learning from it has helped me be more prepared for more advanced classes in the future.

How Covid changed the way I viewed education.

When Covid started it just seemed like a two week break,  unfortunately it turned into a year of online school. Online school is very different then in person school. There are always problems with teaching online one day the teachers mic doesn’t work, another day where they can’t connect and so on. Because of all of these problems students and teachers became too laxed with the work such as passing a student who does nothing but show themselves in a zoom meeting. I realized that everyone at my school barely tried to do school work, even myself. I would count how many assignments it would take to at least show a good grade on my report card and then ignore everything else. All that mattered to me and  my classmates was that we passed. I could tell that most people in the class didn’t care about what they were learning. They just wanted to pass and move on from the class. Every time I talked about this with my friends in the class they told me that they have no interest in learning about the classes in high school because getting a high school diploma was the only thing that mattered. They would tell me that learning Geometry wouldn’t help them in the future with their career.

SFD (Language journey)

Have you ever been in an unfamiliar environment and had no idea who to talk to or what to do? Chances are you have been, this is what I was going through when first entering school all the way back in elementary school. Just like any other kid, I was pretty nervous to go to school back in the day and there was 1 major problem that also led me to not wanting to be there. Not speaking English. The education system in America is made default for those who speak English, its made especially for them. Its very unfair for those who have setbacks and people fail to realize that the education system does not care about them. To the system, that kid is just another number that will eventually either go down the wrong path or find a way to overcome their obstacles. Going through school with my language setback really changed the way I saw the education system. Its was very disappointing to see.

 

I was born in the United States but I grew up in a Hispanic household. My mom at the time only spoke Spanish and my dad barely spoke English. It was hard for all of us and the only person who was good at English was my sister. She was in high school though. So Spanish was inevitably going to be my first language and I was really good at it. When school hit it was a different story, I remember walking in and just hearing people talk super fast, I would tell my dad I want to go to the bathroom and bring him so I could cry that I did not want them to leave. It was terrifying because being so innocent and never leaving my parent’s side I didn’t know what to think or do. I was hopeless. The first days I didn’t make any friends, people thought I was weird and no one really approached me. They told my parents that I was going to be put into ESL and my father didn’t like the idea. They had to anyways. Going up in grade, I started to get the hang of English and be able to understand and speak words. Though I could tell that I would be treated differently when talking to a teacher or asking a question out loud rather than if someone who spoke English fluently asked the same question. At the time I didn’t think much of it but looking back people thought less of me because I was a Latin-American who spoke broken English. I don’t remember having a Spanish teacher back in elementary school, they were usually either white or African American. Most students were black or white. You could see where my issue was raised from. I had no one to share my struggles with, I was the odd one out. I was different.

 

Saying that… not everything was terrible. There were some teachers that offered to stay with me after class and help me out in certain areas. There were some who understood my issues and why I wasn’t doing so well. What upsets me is that this education system is made in a very unfair way. You cant teach every kid the same thing and expect the same results from everyone. Some kids dominate math and suffer in English and some kids are opposite. Yet, subjects are still forced onto kids and it leads to them being insecure about their learning abilities. With my, I was always pretty good at math, it was rather simple to understand. Mostly because there was not that much English involved. I tried my best to do amazing in that subject which I did, but English was a different story for me. I would struggle, I would fail tests and it would reflect on my report card. Even though I had such a good grade in math, my English grade always made my overall report card average drop to around an 80. Every student has a gift, the school system needs to help them find their gift and embrace it. Don’t tell them that they aren’t going to get anywhere in life just because they cant do good on a math test. Everyone has a purpose in this world and everyone is smart in their own unique way.

 

Schools need to start treating people like people, not statistics. The education system needs to stop judging kids based off what they are able to do with textbooks and useless information. School is really not for everyone and it isn’t the main key to success. People can choose whatever route they want in life and a degree should not hold them back on what they want to do with their life. A degree should not determine ones intelligence or whether they are able to think critically or not. The system needs to find a better way to accommodate kids who aren’t as textbook gifted as others.