Visual Vocabulary

In this picture I see a person or being seeing everything that happens in the light of day. Whether it be a police officer, doctor or therapist. This being can see the hurt, the pain the struggle. But also sees life being brought in the world. Sees happiness, productivity and success. Sometimes I feel like this because I watch everything that happens around me yet, I stay completely still. Just being. I feel weary but I keep going because great things can happen at any moment. Anything.




I’m not really sure how picture makes me feel. I looked out the window one afternoon after a long day in Los Santos (if you know, you know) and I said, ‘’wow, that’s really beautiful.’’ I ran to my bed to grab my phone. I tried different angles and filters but they weren’t working. So then I just stopped and said, ‘’bro just take the picture.’’ And voila.

I know where I am. Who else does? You can probably tell me the season. Can you tell me date? This is my picture. Who was with me? You can only see what I want you to. So, why judge? You may not be but, you also may be. I don’t know what’s on your mind. You only let me see what you want me to. So, why judge?
p.s. this is my favorite picture I’ve ever taken… ever

This feels like childhood. Like nothing is ever going to grow old. There will never be any ugly. Everything is going to be okay. This is relaxation and stress free. Not a care in the world. The suns is going down the sky is a beautiful cotton candy mix. The moon signifies it’s the middle of the year and that there is more to come. More beauty. More moons. More suns. More life. Just look up and breathe.

My head hurts. Not pain. It just hurts. Somethings wrong. Somebody needs help. They’re trapped in a sad reality and there’s too much going on. A family member died. Rehab. Jail. Foster care. Homeless. No family. Where do I turn? Where do I go? Who do I turn to? Myself. I always turn to myself. Too much going on. I can’t think straight, I can’t. Besides that…my head hurts.

Being alone is grey. No friends. Family’s a little busy. Piled up responsibility. Life is stressful. Life is getting things done by a certain time so you can do the next thing on time. But think about it, without grey we wouldn’t understand the how’s, the when’s, the why’s. Learn to appreciate everything and be still. In the grey, just be still.