Kalissa Ortiz
XXXTentacion:
Album: “SKINS”
Song: “TRAIN FOOD”
XXXTentacion album “SKINS” released December 7, 2018 months after his death in middle June. He was shot in Deerfield Beach by Dedrick D. Williams and shortly after died on the way to the hospital. When “SKINS” was released it showed lots of deep symbolism and dark themes in his lyrics. The lyrics can be disturbing to read and analyze but also listening to his sound in music can be hard to listen too. But analyzing further it’s interesting to know what kind of message he was trying to send overall to listeners.
I remember I had walked home that day
Content with all my misery
Told my self it’d get better, no clue what there was next to me
(Kept telling himself it will get better, but it just all got worse from there)
Remember there was people, walkin’, talkin’ in the distance
I was dressed for winter weather
But the summer rays were kissing me
I, I was lost
So I took a different path, in the distance he awaited me
Had no weapon, I’m guessing his hands were just enough for me
Was no question, I’m guessing he laughed just at the sight of me
I was lost
(This could mean his history with drugs and gang violence)
I remember I had walked home that day
Content with all my misery
Told my self it’d get better, no clue what there was next to me
Remember there was people, walkin’, talkin’ in the distance
I was dressed for winter weather
But the summer rays were kissing me
I, I was lost
And there he was, his presence was alarming
As he approaches casual, we talk ’bout self-harming
He told me “kid, you shouldn’t be walkin’ on your own”
He smiled and laughed, and pat my back
He said, “how far are you from home?”
I said, “maybe 30 minutes”
His frequency distorted quick, I seen it in his image
I should’ve run right fucking there, I-
(I think he may be talking about death here, the conversation he is having is with death. In a lot of his songs he always talks about death, and i think all along he always knew he would die very young)
You ever woke up on a train track
With no motherfuckin’ clothes on?
Death before your eyes, you prayin’ to God, but ain’t no response
Trying to scream for hope, just a shoulder that you can lean on
But ain’t nobody coming, so you scream on
And scream on and scream on
While this evil fuck laugh at you?
Train getting closer, you still surprised that he battered you
Tears falling harder and harder, minutes get minuscule
Could’ve had a son or a daughter, now what you finna do?
You finna die here on this train track
‘Cause clearly after death, ain’t no way you can find your way back
Thinking ’bout your previous memories, going way back
All them fucking dreams ’bout the diamond chain and the Maybach
Now your time finally up
Ask yourself the final question, is you going down or up?
Recollectin’ all the moments that you never gave a fuck
Now it’s here, death has now arrived, time’s finally up
(Reading this is very dark and just shows how all along he knew death was coming and in fact he’d been faced with it many times before. He’s been so close with death almost like he can touch it, but finally it’s got him)
