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Anthology of Words

Entries #1-15

1) Aquiver

2) Ungainly

3) Coquettish

4) Remitted

5) Dispensation

6) Tarry

7) Melancholy

8) Floundering

9) Domesticity

10) Demurred

11) Congenial

12) Timorous

13) Privy

14) Malevolent

15) Bereft

 

Reflection

As I was doing the glossary entries throughout the semester, I learned new words that I was never exposed to.  The glossary assignment helped me to put new words in my vocabulary and I learned that a word could have many meanings to it. For example, the words privy and tarry had different meanings to it. Privy meant to be private or withdrawn but it also meant a toilet or outhouse where someone would urinate and defecate (Merriam-Webster). Tarry meant to abide or stay at a place but it also meant not to be tardy or in a delay to do something (Merriam-Webster). Furthermore, there were words in the assigned readings that were not of my knowledge, so, looking up their definitions was a great tool for me to understand the readings. Usually, I would read a text and if I stumbled upon a word that was confusing to me, I would bypass it and continue reading until I was done reading the text. However, the glossary assignment made me look up the word that I was confused about before I proceeded to finish reading the text. Lastly, the words in my glossary entries made me start using them in papers that I was writing for in this class and for my other classes as well.

Cover Letter for Project #2

When I wrote this paper, I was wondering how was I going to write a 4-5 page paper on a book that I do not like. I was not really interested or excited about the text but I manage to bring issues in my thesis statement through a lot of research in the text and Internet. In this project, I am proud that I was able to formulate a thesis statement that was clear, understandable, and can be argued throughout my essay. Usually I am struggling to make a thesis statement when I am writing a paper, but in this project I had too many ideas bouncing around in my head. My thesis statement could have been a paragraph if I did not put any constraints on my ideas. The difficult part of this project was narrowing my thesis statement because of the many ideas I had. I had wrote so many ideas in my first draft of part 1 that I had to cut things out in order to keep the important things that would help me in aiding in my argument. Another challenging thing about this project was finding evidence from the text to support my argument. Although, I marked up my book and made notes, the language of the text was so off putting, so I had to continually go on SparkNotes to find out where certain information was located in the text and what a certain passage meant.

The skill that I required from doing this project is doing a better thesis statement for my essay. I believe this skill is going to be great in the future when I work in the legal profession because as an attorney you are supposed to formulate arguments in your case. Another skill I required is analyzing and interpreting passages from text. The five-step method from Professor Dever’s was hard to grasp at first but as I wrote my essay, I started to understand the concept behind that methodology. It made me analyze more in the evidence I was using to support my argument; something that I would never do. If I could change any part of my project, I would not change anything. After many revisions, I believe my work product is good and I am confident that it deserves a passing grade. If I could change any part of project #2, I would only include part 2 of the project because I got to be creative and I did not have to formulate a thesis statement in a structured paper. Basically, in part 2 I got to have fun. Lastly, I would consider changing the book and using a different text that is more clear, adventurous, and fun to read, so that students can enjoy writing about a book that they love.

Robbed

Robbed

I am broken.

For the very thing that I had that was near to me, has been lost,

It was the very thing I gave birth to,

It was a source of nourishment,

A place for my youngin’ to satisfy her need,

It was my mine,

IT BELONGED TO ME!

IT WAS MY MILK!

 

But where has it gone?

To the mouths of the white girls,

To the mouths of the white boys,

What about my youngin’?

What will she have?

I kept it safe for her,

I made sure I took care of myself,

I did everything a mother was supposed to do.

 

Now, what can I give to you my child?

I have nothing to offer to you,

My bosom is empty and my heart is empty,

If I had, I would have given you the world,

But sadly I have nothing to give to you, my sweet child.

Forgive me, for one day I will repay you.

 

This poem is about Sethe getting her milk robbed from her while she was a slave at Sweet Home. In Beloved, “those boys [the nephews of the Schoolteacher] came in there and took her milk
they held her down and took it
Schoolteacher made one [of the boys] open up her back and when it closed it made a tree
they used cowhide on her and took her milk
they beat her while she was pregnant and they took her milk” (Morrison 19-20). As I wrote this poem, I wrote it as if Sethe was describing her anguish for her milk getting robbed and the remorse of not having it to give to Beloved. I also wrote it as if Sethe was going to restore the bonding between herself and Beloved, since Sethe did not have any milk to give to Beloved when she arrived to Ohio. Now, addressing the section where I state, “to the mouths of the white girls, to the mouths of the white boys,” I got that idea from when Sethe explains that her milk was being taken from her to be given to the young white children. Slaves, including Sethe, would be assigned to breast feed other children besides their own. In Sethe’s case, she was not breast feed by her own mother.

Traumatic Memories

In Beloved by Toni Morrison, the main character, Sethe, is living in Ohio with her daughter Denver. Sethe escaped the harsh brutalities as a slave, however, she continued to relive the bad memories she endured as a slave at Sweet Home. As Sethe lived her new life at 124, she tried not to mention the past to Denver, but it would always come up through the daily activities of her life or when Beloved, her deceased daughter, would ask her to retell stories of her life. As for Beloved, her ghost came back to ignite Sethe’s bad feelings of the past. Beloved caused Sethe to feel depressed for killing her and the attempted murder of her other children (175-179). However, the memory that really haunted Sethe’s conscious was when her milk was stolen (19-20). Therefore, if Sethe’s milk was not stolen, her husband, Halle, would have escaped with Sethe and their children and would not have been heart broken from witnessing his wife being violated; she would not have gotten post-traumatic stress from that harsh ordeal, which would eventually cause her to kill Beloved; have her children become fearful of her, and ultimately break up the family; lastly, Beloved’s ghost would not have returned to torment Sethe for killing her.

When Sethe’s milk was stolen, it devastated her. The memory that seared her conscious through her daily life was when “those boys [the nephews of the Schoolteacher] came in there and took her milk
they held her down and took it
Schoolteacher made one [of the boys] open up her back and when it closed it made a tree
they used cowhide on her and took her milk
they beat her while she was pregnant and they took her milk” (19-20). In this scene, it shows that while Sethe was a slave at Sweet Home, schoolteacher allowed her nephews to hold down Sethe to take her milk. As Sethe’s milk was being taken from her, schoolteacher was watching the whole thing. The milk that Sethe was going to use to nurse her baby girl, Beloved, was taken from her as if someone had raped her. Beloved and Sethe’s other children were already sent to Ohio and Sethe knew that when she arrived to Ohio she would have her milk ready to nurse Beloved, however, there was nothing to give to her child anymore.

The worse thing about that event was that her husband, Halle, “saw them boys [the nephews of the Schoolteacher] steal Sethe’s milk from her and let them keep on breathing air” (81). Halle watched the whole ordeal but he could not do anything about it. He could not defend Sethe or say one word because he was also a slave under the dominion of the schoolteacher. Halle saw that his role as a man had diminished and he no longer could protect his wife as a man was supposed to do, therefore, it broke Halle, affected his psyche, and caused him to smear butter all over his face (82-83). Halle, Sethe, and their children had planned to escape with Sixo and Paul D to Ohio, however, Halle disappeared after seeing Sethe’s milk being stolen (265). Once Halle was not in the picture, Sethe had to do everything by her self. While she was pregnant with Denver, Sethe had to send her children first to Ohio and then she had to escape by herself (190). Furthermore, while escaping she had to give birth to Denver, although Amy Denver, a white girl helped her, she was doing everything without Halle being there (190).

Secondly, the pain that Sethe acquired from her milk getting stolen caused her to get posttraumatic stress disorder. The hurt of the past overwhelm Sethe so much that she wanted to spare her children from experiencing the same ordeal, so, she swung “Denver toward the wall planks, missed and tried to connect a second time
 while “Howard and Buglar lied open-eyed in the sawdust,” and the “third [Beloved] pumped blood down the dress of Sethe” (175-176). In this scene, it shows that Sethe attempts to kill Denver by hitting her against a wall after hurting her sons, Howard and Buglar, and cutting Beloved with a handsaw, so that it causes her blood to cover Sethe’s dress. Sethe could not deal with the violation of her milk being stolen, so, it gave her a reason to take the life of Beloved and attempt to kill her other children as a means of saving them from the harsh brutalities of slavery. Furthermore, when Sethe kills Beloved, she violently kills her in a way that defied the love one would expect a mother to have for her children. Sethe did not have to kill her daughter; she could have abandoned her children by not meeting with them in Ohio and going to a different state. However, Sethe thought that death was the only means to save her children. To Sethe, it was better for her children to die, then to live and end up facing the same ordeal she went through.

Next, in the event of Sethe killing Beloved, it caused her other children to be afraid of her (216 & 242). During Beloved’s funeral “neither Howard nor Buglar would let Sethe near them, not even to touch their hair” (216). They were afraid that Sethe would do the same thing to do them as she did to Beloved, so they eventually ran away (245). As for Denver, she continued to live with Sethe because “she loved her mother but she knew that Sethe killed one of her own daughters, and tender as she was with her,” Denver was always living in constant fear that “the thing that happened that made it all right for her mother to kill her sister could happen again,” so, she was always watching her mother’s every move, lest she be killed as well (242). Therefore, Sethe’s trauma effect all her children by causing them to separate from their mother and ultimately break up the family bond that was once there.

Thirdly, since Sethe’s milk was stolen and she killed Beloved as a means to save them from the harsh brutalities of slavery, Beloved’s ghost returned in Sethe’s life to torment her for causing her death. When Beloved first came to 124, Sethe takes her in and helps her to recover on her health without knowing that it was her daughter (62-65). Later, Sethe realize that it is her deceased daughter that had returned to her. At first, Beloved and Sethe was always together indulging themselves in fancy clothes and food (282), however, the mood in the home changed and arguments began (284).

“Beloved accused Sethe of leaving her behind
And Sethe cried, saying she never did, or meant to—that she had to get her children out, away, that she had the milk all the time and had the money too for the stone but not enough
Beloved was not interested. Sethe pleaded for forgiveness, counting, listing again and again her reasons: that Beloved was more important, meant more to her than her own life. That she would trade places any day. Give up her life, every minute and hour of it, to take back just one of Beloved’s tears” (284).

In this scene, Beloved’s intentions are brought to light when she starts arguing with Sethe about abandoning her in Ohio. Sethe pleads to Beloved that she would never abandon her and that she had the milk ready for her when she arrived to Ohio. Sethe pleads for forgiveness but Beloved does not want to hear it, instead Beloved accuses Sethe for leaving her and that her abandonment was on purpose because she really did not love her. Furthermore, because Beloved believes that she was abandoned in Ohio, she concludes that Sethe killed her because Sethe no longer wanted her anymore. This lead Beloved to become very disrespectful by slamming things around the house, eating most of the food in the house, throwing salt on the floor, and breaking a windowpane (285). As Beloved gained more weight, Sethe lost weight and became neglectful in taking care of her own self. Instead of combing her hair or washing her face, Sethe “sat in a chair licking her lips like a chastised child while Beloved ate up her life” (295). Finally, Beloved attempted to kill Sethe with an ice pick but failed at it and disappeared (309). Therefore, Beloved’s return to torment her mother was out of lack of information of not knowing that Sethe had been violated with her milk being stolen. Sethe was trying to get all her children to Ohio and in that process schoolteacher’s nephews violated her when they stole her milk.

In conclusion, Sethe’s milk getting stolen was the most pivotal scene in Beloved because it brought an aftermath of pain and grief that followed Sethe from Sweet Home to Ohio. First, Sethe’s milk getting stolen, made her husband, Halle, get depressed and disappear from Sethe when they were supposed to escape to Ohio together with their children. Second, Sethe was dealing with post-traumatic stress from her milk getting stolen, which caused her to kill Beloved and have her children fearful of her, and lastly, Beloved’s ghost returned from the dead to torment and take revenge on Sethe for killing her. All of these events could have been avoided and she could have had her whole family together at Ohio. Instead these events broke Sethe’s family apart and caused Sethe to live in constant remorse for the killing of her daughter, Beloved.

 

Works Cited

Morrison, Toni. Beloved. New York: Vintage Books, a division of Random House, Inc., 1987. Print.

Robbed (Project #2 Draft)-Part Dos

Robbed

I am broken.

For the very thing that I had that was near to me, has been lost,

It was the very thing I gave birth to,

It was a source of nourishment,

A place for my youngin’ to satisfy her need,

It was my mine,

IT BELONGED TO ME!

 

But where has it gone?

To the mouths of the white girls,

To the mouths of the white boys,

What about my youngin’?

What will she have?

I kept it safe for her,

I made sure I took care of myself,

I did everything a mother was supposed to do.

 

Now, what can I give to you my child?

I have nothing to offer to you,

My bosom is empty and my heart is empty,

If I had, I would have given you the world,

But sadly I have nothing to give to you, my sweet child.

Forgive me, for one day I will repay you.

 

This poem is about Sethe getting her milk robbed from her while she was a slave at Sweet Home. In Beloved, “those boys [the nephews of the Schoolteacher] came in there and took her milk
they held her down and took it
Schoolteacher made one [of the boys] open up her back and when it closed it made a tree
they used cowhide on her and took her milk
they beat her while she was pregnant and they took her milk” (Morrison 19-20). As I wrote this poem, I wrote it as if Sethe was describing her anguish for her milk getting robbed and the remorse of not having it to give to Beloved. I also wrote it as if Sethe was going to restore the bonding between herself and Beloved, since Sethe did not have any milk to give to Beloved.

Sethe’s Tormentor (Project #2 Draft)-Part Uno

In Beloved, the main character, Sethe, is living in Ohio, a free state for blacks, with her daughter Denver. Sethe escaped the harsh brutalities as a slave, however, she continued to relive the bad memories she endured as a slave at Sweet Home. As Sethe lived her new life at 124, she tried not to mention the past to Denver, but it would always come up through the daily activities of her life or when Beloved, her deceased daughter, would ask her to retell stories of her life. As for Beloved, her ghost came back to ignite Sethe’s bad feelings of the past. Beloved caused Sethe to feel depressed for killing her and the attempted murder of her other children (Morrison 175-179). However, the memory that really haunted Sethe’s conscious was when “those boys [the nephews of the Schoolteacher] came in there and took her milk
they held her down and took it
Schoolteacher made one [of the boys] open up her back and when it closed it made a tree
they used cowhide on her and took her milk
they beat her while she was pregnant and they took her milk” (Morrison 19-20). Therefore, if Sethe’s milk was not stolen, her husband, Halle, would have escaped with Sethe and their children and help Sethe give birth to Denver while they were escaping to Ohio; she would not have gotten post-traumatic stress from that harsh ordeal, which would eventually cause her to kill Beloved for fear that the pain she endured would also happen to Beloved, and Beloved’s ghost would had never return to torment her for killing her.

When Sethe’s milk was stolen, it devastated her. The milk that she was going to use to nurse Denver after she left her womb was taken from her as if someone had rapped her (Morrison 19-20). The worse thing about that event was that her husband, Halle, “saw them boys [the nephews of the Schoolteacher] do that [steal Sethe’s milk] from her and let them keep on breathing air” (Morrison 81). Halle watched the whole ordeal but he could not do anything about it. “It broke him [Halle],” affected his psyche, and caused him to smear butter all over his face (Morrison 82-83). Sethe, Halle, and their children had planned to escape with Sixo and Paul D to Ohio but Halle was never seen after Sethe’s milk was stolen (Morrison 265). Since Sethe was pregnant, Halle was going to help Sethe and their children with their escape to Ohio but Sethe “did it. She got them [her children] out. Without Halle too. Up till then it was the only thing she ever did on her own
Each and every one of her babies,” including herself came to Ohio (Morrison 190). “She birthed them and got em [her children] out
she did that. She had help, of course, lots of that, but still it was her doing it” (Morrison 190). Furthermore, If Halle did not disappear, he would have helped Sethe to give birth to Denver and Amy Denver, the whitegirl, would not need to help Sethe during Denver’s delivery (Morrison 99-100).

Secondly, the pain that Sethe acquired from her milk getting stolen caused her to get posttraumatic stress disorder. “She’d gone wild, due to the mishandling of the nephew who’d overbeat her and made her cut and run” (Morrison 176). So, she swung her “baby [Beloved] toward the wall planks, missed and tried to connect a second time
 while “the two [Howard and Buglar] lied open-eyed in the sawdust,” and the “third [Beloved] pumped blood down the dress of the main one [Sethe]” (Morrison 175-176). In this scene, Sethe could not deal with the violation of her milk being stolen, so, it gave her a reason to take the life of Beloved and attempt to kill her other children as a means of saving them from the harsh brutalities of slavery. However, Sethe’s actions caused her other children, Denver, Buglar, and Howard to be afraid of her (Morrison 216 & 242). During Beloved’s funeral “neither Howard nor Buglar would let her [Sethe] near them, not even to touch their hair” (Morrison 216). They were afraid that Sethe would do the same thing to do them as she did to Beloved, so they eventually ran away (Morrison 245). As for Denver, she continued to live with Sethe because “she loved her mother but she knew she [Sethe] killed one of her own daughters, and tender as she was with her,” Denver was always living in constant fear that “the thing that happened that made it all right for her mother to kill her sister could happen again,” so, she was always watching her mother’s every move, less she be killed as well (Morrison 242).

Thirdly, since Sethe’s milk was stolen and she killed Beloved as a means to save them from the harsh brutalities of slavery, Beloved’s ghost returned in Sethe’s life to torment her for causing her death. When Beloved first came to 124, she was “feverish” from the cholera she had and she was “poorly fed” (Morrison 62 & 64). At first, Sethe takes her in and helps her to get better without knowing that it was her daughter (Morrison 61-65). Sethe believed that Beloved was a harmless child and that she was a good friend to Denver. However, Denver began to realize that Beloved was her deceased sister that came back to take revenge on Sethe, especially after she saw Beloved choke Sethe’s neck (Morrison 119). As Beloved’s health began to improve, she began to become more “demanding” (Morrison 283). Although, Sethe was fond of her presence (Morrison 63) and her eagerness for Sethe to tell stories of her life (Morrison 69), Beloved began to suck the life out of Sethe by her constant need to get everything from Sethe (Morrison 283). Whether it was food, clothes, or attention, Beloved “got it, and when Sethe ran out of things to give her, Beloved invented desire” (Morrison 283).

“Then the mood changed and the arguments began
 Beloved accused her [Sethe] of leaving her behind
And Sethe cried, saying she never did, or meant to—that she had to get them [her children] out, away, that she had the milk all the time and had the money too for the stone but not enough
Beloved was not interested. Sethe pleaded for forgiveness, counting, listing again and again her reasons: that Beloved was more important, meant more to her than her own life. That she would trade places any day. Give up her life, every minute and hour of it, to take back just one of Beloved’s tears” (Morrison 284).

However, Beloved did not accept Sethe’s forgiveness, instead she was being very disrespectful by slamming things around the house, wiping the table clean of plates [Beloved was eating a lot of food], throwing salt on the floor, and she broke a windowpane (Morrison 285). As Beloved gained more weight, Sethe lost weight and became neglectful in taking care of her own self. Instead of combing her hair or washing her face, Sethe “sat in a chair licking her lips like a chastised child while Beloved ate up her life, took it, swelled up with it, and grew taller on it” (Morrison 295). Finally, Beloved attempted to kill Sethe with an ice pick but failed at it and disappeared (Morrison 309).

In conclusion, Sethe’s milk getting stolen was the most pivotal scene in Beloved because it brought an aftermath of pain and grief that followed Sethe from Sweet Home to Ohio. First, Sethe’s milk getting stolen, made her husband, Halle, get depressed and disappear from Sethe when they were supposed to escape to Ohio together with their children. Second, Sethe was dealing with post-traumatic stress from her milk getting stolen, which caused her to kill Beloved and lastly, Beloved’s ghost returned from the dead to torment and take revenge on Sethe for killing her. All of these events could have been avoided and she could have had her whole family together at Ohio. Instead these events broke Sethe’s family apart and caused Sethe to live in constant remorse for the killing of her daughter, Beloved.

 

Works Cited

Morrison, Toni. Beloved. New York: Vintage Books, a division of Random House, Inc., 1987. Print.

Five-Step Method for Quoting “Beloved” (Project #2)

Introduce: In Beloved, the main character Sethe is presently living at 124 with her daughter Denver, however, she continue to relive the bad memories she endured as a slave at Sweet Home. Although, she tried to not mention the past to Denver, it would always come up through the daily activities of her life or when Beloved, her deceased daughter, would ask her to retell stories of her life. As for Beloved, she ignited Sethe’s bad feelings of the past, causing Sethe to feel depressed for the things she did that haunted her very conscious. Therefore, because Sethe was dealing with posttraumatic stress disorder from the harsh sufferings of slavery, Beloved used Sethe’s anguish to torment her even more. (I rarely use quotations from the text for my introduction)

Quote: One of the harsh sufferings Sethe went through, is when she was tied down at Sweet Home by men for her nursing (breast) milk. “After I left you, those boys came in there and took my milk. That’s what they came in there for. Held me down and took it. I told Mrs. Garner on em. She had that lump and couldn’t speak but her eyes rolled out tears. Them boys found out I told on em. Schoolteacher made one open up my back, and when it closed it made a tree. It grows there still.” “They used cowhide on you?” “And they took my milk.” “They beat you and you was pregnant?” “And they took my milk!” (Morrison 19-20)

Interpret: In this quote, the owners of Sweet Home hold down Sethe, so that they take her milk. As her milk was being stolen, the schoolteacher was taking notes of this as if she was a lab experiment. Furthermore, her husband, Halle, had to witness this while he could not do anything about it.

Analyze: When Sethe’s milk was stolen, she was violated. Sethe was helpless and there was nothing she could do because she belonged to the owner of Sweet Home. This traumatic scene played a negative effect to Sethe’s psyche, causing her to kill her daughter, Beloved, and attempt to kill her other children, Denver, Buglar, and Howard, to spare them of the harsh life of being a slave.

Apply: (1)“Growled when they (Sethe and Beloved) chose; sulked, explained demanded, strutted, cowered, cried and provoked each other to the edge of violence, then over. She had begun to notice that even when Beloved was quiet, dreamy, minding her own business, Sethe got her going again. Whispering, muttering some justification, some bit of clarifying information to Beloved to explain what it had been like, and why, and how come. It was as though Sethe didn’t really want forgiveness given; she wanted it refused. And Beloved helped her” (Morrison 296-297).

(2) “Denver thought she understood the connection between her mother and Beloved: Sethe was trying to make up for the handsaw; Beloved was making her pay for it” (Morrison 295).

Beloved was angry for what Sethe did to her, so she brought her torment by constantly fighting between herself and Sethe. Also, Sethe could not forgive herself for killing Beloved, so Beloved feed into Sethe’s misery, causing Sethe to feel more miserable for killing her.

This method is great but I am unsure if I am doing this right. Am I supposed to be writing my draft of part 1 in the format of the five-step method? As for my rating of this method, I believe it is helping me to organize where and how to use the quotation in my essay. However, this method does not help you to formulate a thesis statement.

 

Sethe Kills Beloved

The scene that is so pivotal in Beloved is when the sheriff comes to the shed after Sethe kills Beloved. Starting from page 177, paragraph 3, to page 179, paragraph 1, it states: “They unhitched from schoolteacher’s horse the borrowed mule that was to carry the fugitive woman back to where she belonged, and tied it to the fence. Then, with the sun straight up over their heads, they trotted off, leaving the sheriff behind among the damnedest bunch of coons they’d ever seen. All testimony to the results of a little so-called freedom imposed on people who needed every care and guidance in the world to keep them from the cannibal life they preferred. The sheriff wanted to back out too. To stand in the sunlight outside of that place meant for housing wood, coal, kerosene—fuel for cold Ohio winters, which he thought of now, while resisting the urge to run into the August sunlight. Not because he was afraid. Not at all. He was just cold. And he didn’t want to touch anything. The baby in the baby in the old man’s arms was crying, and the woman’s eyes with no whites were gazing straight ahead. They all might have remained that way, frozen till Thursday, except one of the boys on the floor sighed. As if he were sunk in the pleasure of deep sweet sleep, he sighed the sigh that flung the sheriff into action. “I’ll have to take you in. No trouble now. You’ve done enough to last you. Come on now.” She did not move. “You come quiet, hear, and I won’t have to tie you up.” She stayed still and he had made up his mind to go near her and some kind of way bind her wet red hands when a shadow behind him in the doorway made him turn. The nigger with the flower in her hat entered.

Baby Suggs noticed who breathed and who did not and went straight to the boys lying in the dirt. The old man moved to the woman gazing and said, “Sethe. You take my armload and gimme yours.” She turned to him, and glancing at the baby he was holding, made a low sound in her throat as though she’d made a mistake, left the salt out of the bread or something. “I’m going out here and send for a wagon,” the sheriff said and got into the sunlight at last. But neither Stamp Paid nor Baby Suggs could make her put her crawling-already? girl down. Out of the shed, back in the house, she held on. Baby Suggs had got the boys (Howard and Buglar) inside and was bathing their heads, rubbing their hands, lifting their lids, whispering, “Beg your pardon, I beg your pardon,” the whole time. She bound their wounds and made them breath camphor before turning her attention to Sethe. She took the crying baby (Denver) from Stamp Paid and carried it on her shoulder for a full two minutes, then stood in front of its mother. “It’s time to nurse your youngest,” she said. Sethe reached up for the baby without letting the dead one go. Baby Suggs shook her head. “One at a time,” she said and traded the living for the dead, which she carried into the keeping room. When she came back, Sethe was aiming a bloody nipple into the baby’s mouth. Baby Suggs slammed her fist on the table and shouted, “Clean up! Clean yourself up!”

I believe if Sethe did not kill Beloved than Howard and Buglar would not have been afraid of her. In the text, it states that Howard and Buglar did not want to be near Sethe during the day of Beloved’s funeral. Also, Howard and Buglar were afraid if they were going to be the next child that Sethe was going to kill, so, they ran away from. Likewise, Denver would not have been afraid of Sethe if she did not kill Beloved. Although, she did not run away like her brothers, she was constantly living in fear of what Sethe was going to do. Denver was always watching her mother’s every move, being careful with her, less she be killed as well. Also, Denver believed she had to take care of her mother because she did not want the same episode that happened to Beloved to happen again to herself or anyone else. If Sethe did not kill Beloved with a handsaw, then Beloved’s ghost would not have come in the house to torment her. In the text, Beloved comes to 124 as thin frail girl that has no family. At first, Sethe takes her in and helps her to get better without knowing that it was her daughter. Sethe believed that Beloved was a harmless child and that she was a good friend to Denver. However, Paul D realized something was not right with Beloved. He saw that she came to 124 with a nice dress and nice shoes and he became suspicious of her being homeless because the slaves Paul D encountered were either hungry, robbed, or deprived of something (Page 78). Although, Denver and Sethe ignored Paul D’s assumptions, Denver later realizes that Beloved was her sister and that she came back to take revenge on Sethe for killing her. Sethe, also, realized that Beloved was her child when Beloved would ask Sethe of things that only Sethe would know such as her earrings and other stories that she could not have know if she was a stranger to the family. Furthermore, the scar that was on Beloved’s neck was a clue to Sethe showing that Beloved was her deceased daughter that came back to her.

As Beloved got well, any chance she got she would ask Sethe to retell stories of her life and make sweet desserts for her. Sethe did not oblige and she would do them even if she did not have the resources for it. I believe Sethe was trying to mend her relationship that she broke when she killed Beloved. However, Beloved fed into her remorse and started to suck the life out of her like a parasite. As Beloved got fatter from the constant desserts that Sethe was feeding her, the fighting between them got worse (Page 296). Denver believed “she kept them alive” but she became more afraid for the safety of her mother than the safety of Beloved (Page 296). At the end of the text, Beloved has an ice pick in her hand and Denver and Sethe were running away from Beloved (Page 309). Although, Denver and Sethe does not die, Sethe gets a mental breakdown from the trauma that she went through with Beloved, causing Denver to now take care of her and be the head of the household (Page 319-321). Another point I want to make is that, Paul D could have continued his intimate relationship with Sethe. I believe Paul D wanted to be with Sethe and establish a family ( such as a wife, husband, and child), however, the news of Sethe putting a handsaw to her own child was too traumatic for him, so he left (Page 221).

Bereft

Bereft (adjective): 1 a: deprived or robbed of the possession or use of something b: lacking something needed, wanted, or expected; 2: suffering the death of a loved one (Merriam-Webster)

Found on Page 78, paragraph 2 of Beloved–>“This girl Beloved, homeless and without people, beat all, though he couldn’t say exactly why, considering the colored people he had run into during the last twenty years. During, before and after the War he had seen Negros so stunned, or hungry, or tired or bereft it was a wonder they recalled or said anything.”

I believe this word in the quote means when Paul D observed Beloved’s nice dress and shoes, he was suspicious of her being homeless because the slaves Paul D encountered were either hungry, robbed, or deprived of something. This meant that Beloved did not look hopeless and she did not look like she was lacking anything according to Paul D’s assumptions.