“Lisa, you are a very good student. You can study anything–even if you don’t like it.”
I will always remember these words spoken to me by my father. These words were meant as a compliment but felt as a mixture of insult and motivation. In my mind the resulting thought was: My brothers were smarter than me, but I was a just good at studying. Today kids would call me a “grind.” In fact I proved such a good student that I could get myself all the way to medical school – through premed analytical chemistry which I hated, through organic chemistry lab which put holes in my blue jeans, through the MCATS which I toiled for a whole summer in preparation — and arrived at age 23 as a first year med school student before I realized this path wasn’t what I wanted, and that I didn’t know what I wanted in life. I dropped out of medical school. I felt lost, groundless, like a failure, and depressed.
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“Lisa, you are a very good student. You can study anything–even if you don’t like it.”
I will always remember these words spoken to me by my father. [when? what age? timeline needed] These words were meant as a compliment but felt as a mixture of insult and motivation. In my mind the resulting thought was: My brothers were smarter than me, but I was a just good at studying. [develop more by describing, detailing, list the way I studied] Today kids would call me a “grind.” [new paragraph?] In fact I proved such a good student that I could get myself all the way to medical school [yeah need to set the first sentences back in time] – through premed analytical chemistry which I hated, through organic chemistry lab which put holes in my blue jeans, through the MCATS which I toiled for a whole summer in preparation — and arrived at age 23 as a first year med school student before I realized this path wasn’t what I wanted, and that I didn’t know what I wanted in life. I dropped out of medical school. I felt lost, groundless, like a failure, and depressed.
I’m so sorry this happened to you Lisa you don’t deserve to be brought down even after you put your heart and sweat into getting into medical school just to come to the realization that it just wasn’t meant for you.