The BACKSTABBER!

😡 I cant even begin to explain how I feel toward Titus.

Violet was sick. So Titus took her to the hospital after malfunction. She already felt awful about what she said to Quendy at the party but she also felt relieved to scream.  As Violet was in the hospital she sends him a list, a Definitive list of things she wanted to do. Something like a bucket list. As Violet chats Titus he begins to ignore her. He starts to avoid and delete some of her messages. When Violet needed him the most he was drifting away! Violet finally got Titus to decide to go to the mountains with her, it was one of the things on her list to do, as was staying in a hotel, and so they did. Then Violet starts pulling some moves on Titus to be romantic being that she’s his girlfriend and all. Titus couldn’t go through with it. Her dying was the only thing he could think of. So they have this argument! 😡  They break up. I was so upset! Titus why! Would you let that happen when she told you before in the hospital (216) that she wouldn’t forget you that you’ll always be in her memory! 👿 Such a guy move.

Then. Titus eventually starts to date Quendy! Seriously Titus Quendy. Quendy just wanted to be loved I understand but Seriously???

Sometime later Around summer. Titus feels something is wrong. He sees Violet laying in bed literally like a potato. Of course Violets father was heartbroken. Violet had no hair she couldn’t move or speak. Of course Titus leaves because he cant handle the truth. Its too late when he comes back Violets dead. What a way to end.

When I first read this book I though it would be boring. As I read along I built a relationship with the characters. I believe the reason why Violet died was because of the implantation at a late age and her trying to resist the feed didn’t help either. Plus all the stress. All she wanted was to live a life where she wasn’t categorized, where she was free to think and like what ever she wanted.

I know Titus cant feel. I know he doesn’t want to be dumb. But I do believe if took violet a little more serious. He would understand more. He would feel more. I know he tried and it made them further. But Titus decided to leave. Titus decided to date Quendy. I keep thinking If Titus would’ve left Violet alone when they were on the moon. Would she have still been hacked? Would she have left early instead of helping Quendy with her stupid hair to cover her stupid lesion. If they never bothered Violet would she have still been alive?

Violet was a great girl she didn’t need to be left alone. She shouldn’t have went out like that. My jaw dropped and I literally almost shed a tear.

I still believe Titus is a backstabber. I feel you shouldn’t leave someone when they needed you especially when you were that close.

 

Slumberland

In part 4 of Feed by M. T. Anderson, violet was brought to the hospital by Titus due to her malfunction getting worse. Her father comes to see her while Titus is still in the hospital. Violet’s frequent malfunctioning has made her father and Titus very worried. They take her home soon. Titus goes to her house the next day and she chats him that she wants to do so many things in life. she also tells him that she lost 1 year of her memory from her feed. she can’t recall what happened before she got the feed. later Violet messages Titus a list of things she wants to do before she dies and labels it, “Definitive list of things I want to do” (229). Violet begins messaging him a lot, but Titus starts to avoid her messages, he even deletes some of them. She wants to go to the mountains, so she persuades Titus to go with her. They stay in a hotel, Violet gets romantic with him, but Titus can’t accept that because she was going to die. After arguing, Titus decides to break up with her and they leave home. Titus has started to date Quendy after that. A few months later, during summertime, he feels something is wrong so he visits Violet and sees her in bed, she’s bald, she can’t talk, move, or do anything. Violet’s father blames Titus for her condition. Titus couldn’t bare to hear that so he left, but he does come to see her again in a couple of days and unfortunately she dies.

Violet’s early death was mostly because of the feed. She probably should’ve never gotten it because it was kind of late for her. She got her’s when she was seven and other people got it when they were babies. Her father should’ve known not to get her an old or perhaps cheap model of feed. Now they are facing the consequences of their bad decision. The late installation of her feed is not the only thing to blame for her death, the hacking is also to blame because it made her malfunction even more often which eventually lead her to death.

Before Violet’s death, she had desires for doing so many things, because she wanted to experience them in real life. Even though she had a limited amount of time, she made a list called, “Definitive list of things I want to do”(229). which most likely means that she didn’t want to die before completing or fulfilling her desires. She messages Titus oftenly about herself but Titus doesn’t chat her back because he doesn’t like the fact that he is going out with someone that is going to die. Sometimes he skims through the messages or reads the beginning of it, then he decides to delete them. They both have different feelings about each other, their relationship has changed a lot since the beginning.

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We now learn who Titus has become. Through Violets fathers words and her condition, we are taken to a mad sad place. And the feed delivers ever more ominous messages on the state of the world.

People are rioting in the malls everywhere as their skin disappears. It is peeling off and nobody knows why. America is being threatened by “The Global Alliance” who issued a statement that says, “the physical and biological integrity of the earth relies at this point upon the dismantling of American based corporate entities, whatever the cost.”(p.243)

People have been disappearing….whole suburbs. Large groups of people have been found dead. Maybe it is happening already. Nobody knows anything including what a corporate entity is. The feed continuously delivers these types of messages while advertising shaving cream and sales on jeans. The bombardment of information leaves no time to sort it out. There is no thinking.

Titus deals with his breakup with Violet by getting trashed. He is really not capable of feeling. Losing his so called mind is his intention. He hasn’t been able to communicate with her for awhile but going mal weakens him. The concept of death is so foreign and he won’t deal with it, not even for Violet. But he tries and this rips them further apart.

We never get to understand what time is. The feed distorts everything. All we know is that this teenager has moved on. SchoolTM where Titus seems to learn nothing is over. He has become attached to Quendy. While he is away with the guys, he misses her….and life goes on.

The message revealing Violets decline stops time. The feed has made Titus unable to feel but he must find out what happened. After Violets father blames himself for skimping when buying her feed, he blames Titus for helping his daughter get hacked. We really feel the fathers pain through his flying words. Titus can’t understand a word and he demands over and over, “tell me”.(p.291) Violets father wants him to read it himself and find the answer but he won’t do it. He cannot read. SchoolTM teaches them how to use the information given them. They don’t have to speak, feel or read as long as they have credit.

Titus is numb. The sight of Violet with the disks and tubes has had an affect on him. He strips and forces a moment of silence by exhausting his credit. He is invisible.

The act of deleting someones memories and dreams is haunting. The vision of Violet, so helpless and still having the strength to want some part of her to live on is extraordinary. The story of Titus and she coping with a disintegrading life, together and alone is so sad. The book is ending on that note. The bond of these two is forever and forever is a dream. Titus has finally learned something.

Throughout the novel there has been a feeling that Violet would be punished for her thoughts and behavior. She is told that they won’t help her with her feed because of her profile. She is so brave and at this point we understand the value of life. Once Titus clears his credit so to speak, he sits with her. He whispers his memory to her barely beating heart; “Together, the two crazy kids grow, have madcap escapades, and learn an important lesson about love. They learn to resist the feed.”(p.298) And now we know that this is the beginning of the end.