After reading through the last remaining chapter of Lolita, I seemed to have a little sympathy toward Humbert Humbert.  The guy seemed sad and depress most of the time, and wanted to find his Lolita.  Through reading, it almost felt like a mystery scene, where Humbert would go back to visit the hotels and motels where he and Lolita had visited. ” the clues he left did not establish his identity but they reflected his personality,  or at least a certain homogeneous and striking personility”, here we could see that Humbert is going to all if any length to find the “kidnapper” of his beloved nymph. He’s playing the role of a detective, and might have found clues that his the suspect’s personality.

Humberts love for Lolita seems real but the guy is makes it get the better of him. Here at his fist sight of Lolita in years he said ” I could not kill, of course,  as some have thought. You see, I loved her. It was love at first  sight, at last sight, at ever and ever sight”. Note that he himself knows that the reader understands he would never kill Lolita.. I myself am not too sure whether Humberts really love Lolita or not. From that quote he seems to be revealing some hidden obsessions, and would stop at nothing to keep her happy. She is whats on his mind first and last, he always think of her, even through the reading it is seen.

Humbert seems to understand what he has done, because had made it be know of his own punishment and wanted some that would be appropriate for the horrible crimes he have committed and I respect the guy for that..

The reasons for Humbert’s travelling, is to keep Lolita happy and also to let others not caught on with his and get relationship.

Through Humbert’s journey he as avoided external problem through his travels with lolita and also internal ones, only because he hadn’t settled in one  place for too long. “For little Lo was aware of that glow of hers, and I would often catch her coulant un regard in the direction of some amiable male, some greasy monkey, with a sinewy had I turned my back to go and buy this very Lo a lollipop, than I would hear her and the fair mechanic burst into a perfect love dong of wisecracks.159” This seems to signifies that humbert has paid full attention to Lolita and what her experience with sex had done to her. He notice that through sex, it had made her more attractive to men around her.  Humbert is very wary of what going on, what would do anything to stop her interaction with men or “male gender as a whole”, he states that he doesn’t want to lose her.

Through reading I could see that humber is getting careless with his action. He is constantly trying to get through to Lolita through the act of bribes and it seems to easily consume Lolita’s action of  moralities. Also he’s bringing their sexual acts, more in the open, which shows he being reckless.

Note: Humbert and Gaston both seem to fool society through pedophilia.

“The beastly and beautiful merged at one point, and it is that borderline I would like to fix, and I feel I fail to do do utterly. Why?”

Is humbert humbert feeling a bit of guilt, to the point where he is calling himself a beast(ly)”. (I guess he is human). It seems while being incarcerated, Humbert had the time to think over what he had done. He’s questioning him self it seems; the quote itself seems sad and is seeking forgiveness.

It also seems that he was looking for ways in which he could try to avoid Lolita. While trying to obtain ways to avoid that fate with Lo, it just seemed inevitable, he was destined. I believe the quote is also stating a “what if moment”. Questions in which he kept asking himself, in which he could have avoided going to prison.

while he was making assumptions and asking himself these questions it seems he had a hard time doing so. He might was having a hard time because, he knew he wanted Lolita’s flesh, which he yerned for. He was weak it seemed and couldn’t find it any reasonable justifications to say “what if he hadn’t done it”. In a sense he wanted it, but things didn’t go as planned. He needed/wanted what he wanted/needed and as gotten it, so to speak. So now he has to circum to his own fault of injustice.

Throughout the following reading assignment, Humbert had finally revealed “his” Lolita. She described it as her ad a light of first love. Throughout the story he seems desperate and sneaky in a way. He was devising ways of approaching her, but not to make it too obvious. His way seems sneaky and childish in a sense. It’s a tactic of his approach.  I’m guessing he wanted her to see him as an individual within her age group, one that she can fall in love with or relate to.

He also wanted the reader to know each and every move he was taking. At sometimes he seems like a lion stalking a pray, because of his stealthy move. He would try and slowly approach her and sneak a touch or just to have her near him. At some time he will then tries and bring her in through her own will.

Note: There was a little evidence that signifies that some of Humbert’s original diary note was discarded “not sure what you with that”.

“Lolita” by Vladimir Nabokov, is a novel that had me surprised, the whole time I was reading it. its a shock for me to learn that this book was an “monumental success” as described on the first page within the book. honestly, during my first pages of reading I wanted to stop reading, it seems so wrong. why? because it was very controversial for me, where the narrator seems interested in young children “girl-children” as he would say.

The book was challenging to read, but time had past and I started to pick up a little. while reading I realize that there are a lot of word I wasn’t familiar with, but luckily I had my dictionary along side me. though written in 1955, I would say, that I believe “Lolita” was way ahead of its time period. the way how words where structure, and being placed, though it was some time hard to keep track. Most of the time I would go back and re-read a page, and try to make sense out of it.

I would describe the narrator’s actions as those of a pedophiles’. on page 20 ,second paragraph, he stated “how marvelous were my fancied adventures as I sat on a hard park bench pretending to be immersed in a trembling book”. in this setting, he was getting pleasure through only watching the pre-adolescent girls within the park. reading this made me feel some-what uneasy. I understand nymphets are his preference but the idea of the approach is wrong in my opinion.