” the vacuum of my soul managed to suck in every detail of her bright beauty and these i checked against the features of my dead bride” ( bottom 39) This quote confused me with the vacuum of my soul, what did he mean? Was it because he was older than the girl therefore he was taking away her youth by the touch of his hand? Also why does he try to justify them meeting as a consequence when he completely states she was a prototype. I feel he is convincing himself of not letting go of the memory of Lolita.